★ ∑‡Ω∞ Rhapsodies of a Hermesian Journey★

One Step Closer.

2012-01-16T07:29:00.000-08:00

Right in the middle of my National Service timeline ,Officially Promoted to the rank of Corporal (CPL) , marking that as of a Step closer to ORD , to a civilian life. A rank that marks that of a 2nd-year soldier 'Lao Peng' , with a good amount of experience. 10 and a half more months to go !
Btw , its a new year , and with a new year, should come resolutions (that are achievable !) So, here are a few of mine Short term goals within the 1st half of the year
1.)Finish my final theory and be in the process of learning practical driving lessons
2.)EPREP: complete the business finance and investment e-course
3.)Fitness : get at least a Silver , if better GOLD for my 2nd IPPT window
4.)Learn and brush up a few skills :
5.)Most importantly and lastly , be more grounded in my faith !
Romans 12:2 ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Happy CNY in advance !

Vanguard Adaptor 46

2011-12-26T06:06:00.000-08:00

Hmm on my journey of photography with my DSLR , i decided its time for me to upgrade a better carrier that can carry more lens , in additional to that , carry additional stuff like external flash ,remote shutter release and it can even fit a laptop ! Details:Adaptor earned its name because it’s one versatile camera daypack that’s uniquely designed to be everything you need and more. Whether you shoot right or left handed, Adaptor delivers with quick-access zippered gear openings on both left and right sides so you can get to shooting in a matter of seconds. It’s a great protector, too, with a roomy, customizable interior and thick padding. Easily convert from backpack style to a sling bag by repositioning one of the shoulder straps and neatly stowing the other in its pocket. Zippered and buckled top compartment for additional gear or other supplies. Additional features include a tripod holder and zippered pockets for small accessories and lens caps.

Features:* Holds a laptop up to 13"* Customizable interior* Easily converts to a sling bag by repositioning one of the shoulder straps and neatly stowing the other* Zippered and buckled top compartment for additional gear or other supplies* Padded, breathable fabric on backside

Specifications:Inside Dimensions(LxWxH mm): 240 x 155 x 260Outside Dimensions(LxWxH mm): 270 x 230 x 455Weight(g): 1,000Inside Dimensions(LxWxH inches): 9 1/2" x 6 1/8" x 10 1/4"Outside Dimensions(LxWxH inches): 10 5/8" x 9 7/8" x 17 7/8"Weight(lbs): 2.20Exterior Fabric: Nylon 420D/Polyester 600DInterior Fabric: Polyester 150D/VelvetCapacity: One DSLR with grip and lens attached, 3-4 extra lenses, a flash unit, accessories ( memory cards, cables, battery and charger), plus a laptop up to 13* specifications & photos are taken from http://www.vanguardworld.sg/ Now i don't have to carry my tripod seperately !

What defines success ?

2011-11-27T04:32:00.001-08:00

Success , have different meanings and definitions on interpersonal levelsfor some , it's simply having simple happiness and enjoyment for everyone around them , for some , they go for the riches , prestige, status and the likes , while for some a small blend of everything and always having a keen eye for experiences and adventures ! :) Here's a list of 21 suggestions for success that i came across on the net , its a pretty good one

wrap up on the month

2011-10-29T09:48:00.000-07:00

so , what's up for the month of oct ? actually nothing much , time's passing rather fast when u look back at it , living one day as it goes , but well , we should have a list of things to work ourselves towards , and not live life aimlessly ,
anyways duty flight make me feel like i am on some kind of statis , coming back home everyonce in a while feeling unchanged while others seems to have more interesting events happening.

oh , and yeah recently i got promoted to Lance Corporal (LCP) , or 'Lan Chiau Peng' as some ppl might coin it , the umbrella rank lol ;) ,this marks almost halfway through my NS stint , 1 year 2 months more . Finally something to wear on the chest strap and a miniscule rise in allowance ,ahh not that i am complaining ! .
now looking forward to the end of the year , going on a family trip to Genting highlands ,finally taking overseas leave to clear my leave and a small break from the constant monotony and travelling 'overseas' otherwise.

also in duty , physical fitness can deteoriate easily , thus it is part of my schedule to have a run at least once a week and also utilise all the chinup bars that i can see , especially during duties . (And also , getting my sbj to improve .)
IPPT GOLD for my second window before i ORD is my GOAL . (9 more cm !!!)

recently i caught up with a few of my friends , on how they are doing in sch /army etc nice catching up with them and listening to each other's stories haha.

okay its time to get out of this timehole ,
alright, until the next update !

hmm recen

my blog post for sept!

2011-09-20T20:09:00.000-07:00

ahh lately it seems that i have been updating only like once in a month ( its not a trend ! )
anyways events that have passed that are notable are like the AHM , where the whole squadron ran 10k , and the possibility of activation right after . hmm anyway my flight (which is equivalent to a company ) has became a duty flight , meaning that there is 24/7 duty to be done , its not too bad of a job , but this make the work week irregular and i'll never have all my weekends to me , but instead have some weekdays off , but this also means travelling to and fro from house, camp and the stormtrooper's in training island north east off shore . ahh well , life there is not too bad either! 1 year and 3 months more to ORD !
and speaking of which , i shall not slip into stagnation once again , but try to make my life more meaningful and satisfying instead of just killing time , i read a few good books , such as 'Making time@ by steve taylor

a nice book mainly on psychological time and how and why time seems to be moving slowly or fast at certain instances , it is mind bending and yet interesting in alot of ways , and it certainly can help one try to get the most time out of his life !

2011-08-07T05:34:00.000-07:00

What a sweet and cute song ! ;D
can totally imagine a cute couple kind of romance in this song

book in today and book out tmr for national day !

2011-07-31T06:19:00.000-07:00

VERSE 1
Beautiful God
Laying Your majesty aside
You reached out in love to show me life
Lifted from darkness into light
Oh

VERSE 2
King for a slave
Trading Your righteousness for shame
Despite all my pride and foolish ways
Caught in Your infinite embrace
Oh

CHORUS 1
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compares to this love love love
Burning in my heart

VERSE 3
Saviour and Friend
Breathing Your life into my heart
Your word is the lamp unto my path
Forever I'm humbled by Your love
Oh

BRIDGE
Take my life
Take all that I am
With all that I am I will love You
Take my heart
Take all that I have
Jesus how I adore You

CHORUS 2
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compare to this love love love

as i come down on my knees ,renew my faith , bring me up and tide me through what is to come without fear

2011-07-24T06:01:00.000-07:00

..........sprained my neck .... and booking in ltr =.=

Deployment

2011-06-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

june comes as a time , where many would deem as the middle of the year , we are halfway through , but not there yet kind of feel , and the school vacations for the students , it also comes to me as my birthday month . however , its the 1st time when i am oblivious to the school holidays cus it doesnt affect me now =(
haha spending my birthday in camp wasnt too bad , and i appreciate all the birthday wishes and presents from my friends ! ;D
and its during NS that i got to hang out more with my friends during our limited bookout time , and experiencing 1st hand the nightlife of the singapore city !
went g-max and zirca once with my friends , was an awesome blast !
anyways , now its in the middle of 2 deployments , pre-summex was done , and summex is coming ! and i am appointed as one of the equipment detachment i/c after a brief stint as a store i/c , looking forward ? nah not exactly , but it'll be a new experience , and i shall go through it with an optimistic attitude ! , hang on there my fellow ihawk warriors !!

anyways i bought a camera lens , 50mm AF-s f/1.8G

pretty awesome lens that gives a wide aperture with nice and fast focusing and good for close ups and portraitures !
stay tuned for more updates !

meanwhile , lets chiong finish this tough week !!!!

I Choose SMU !

2011-05-29T00:11:00.000-07:00

Okaaaay ! , after much considerations on the uni offers i was given, between SMU biz management , NUS fass and NTU psychology , and visits to the various uni open houses , i have decided to choose SMU business !
it seems to be the more feasible option ,in terms of job prospects, given my interests over both the social sciences and business.
So , i hope i won't have to regret this choice after booking in , although there's 2 more years to consider again , the campus that i am likely to be going for my freshman year would most likely be SMU LKCSB if i dun change my mind.
looking forward !

its about time !

2011-04-16T02:47:00.000-07:00

Its about time to update my blog a little , Pop , was , awesome , in a sense that it concluded a 9 weeks conversion from a civilian to soldier , photos can be seen from my fb profile !
the 24km (28 ?) march was both mentally and physically draining , and the thing that kept us all going forward was most probably the adrenaline rush that it is POP , and the 1 week break that lays ahead ! the recently revamped route march vroute to be from Changi to Marina bay is what i believe to be a well imposed one , that literally gives a soldier some food for thoughts , that , after training in an island off mainland , we are now trained soldiers coming back to the land , the people and infrastructure that we have to defend , with the aching on our shoulders and feet symbolising the weight and responsibility of each and every soldier . Nevertheless , this is better than marching in Tekong .

and now i am nearing the end of my block leave , i would say that i utilised it quite well to meet up and catch up with various people !
Also , results of the posting were out yesterday . I Got posted to the Airforce as an Air defence weapons operator ,a rather unexpected posting.
although i am a lil disappointed in not getting into command school like plenty of my platoon mates , i am ready to take on what lies ahead of me,tough? slack ? I will do my best in the vocation.I believe God has a purpose in putting me there and i will do my best to reap a great and unique experience in the RSAF

A million things for me to do

2011-03-26T19:19:00.000-07:00

sometimes , time flies , while sometimes , time crawls , but at the end of the day , we can look back and be satisfied that we have gone through it all , from my last blogpost till now , many things have happened in the past month, and i really have to thank God for pulling me through each and everyone of the challenges faced , be it field camp , A lvls results ,sit test and all.I thank God for answering my prayers every now and then , that he is able to light the way for me when things felt so dim.
Anyways i am done with my Uni applications , hopefully i can get into the course of my choice .

Continue to push on , ,its gonna be week 8 soon ,2 more weeks to POP , P O P O P O P !
Regarding command school , I was really anticipating it before i came into NS , and it would be good for me to experience more and get more out of my 2 years in NS , however , i will be open to whatever they want to post me after POP and do my best in whichever posting i am in , for i am there for a purpose ;D

Recruit's dairy

2011-02-25T17:21:00.000-08:00

Life so far , ups and downs , all's well so far , waiting for bookout time to the mainland ! CVD today , i wonder can i make it in time to find my friends!

A note i penned down before i enlisted ( late postage ) 7th Feb

2011-02-25T17:17:00.000-08:00

A million thoughts encircle my mind , as i reflect on the events and happenings that seem to whizz past and become memories at the back of my head in the twinkle of an eye , indeed ,as time can be as slow as the pace of a snail when we are studying , time also flies at a speed that is way faster than a bullet train when we have the luxury of a load of free time to ourselves .

Indeed i am thankful for my friends and family who have given me fond memories etched deeply into my mind

and i treasure every single friend, and family member with the unique moments that i have spent with each and everyone of you

now that i embark on the journey to serve and protect the nation alongside many other young men , i just want to say that i cherished the countless times that we had spent together , with my pri , sec sch and JC bros and my church friends

the times where we were there for each other , weren't what that's friends are for ?

with the oncoming release of 'A' lvls result , i can't really predict what i will be doing in the next half of the year , given the worst case scenario that i have to disrupt Ns to retake my exams. But what is certain is that i will be training to be serving the nation in the next couple of months

Its not that i am gonna perish or die there , but , since its a transitional phase , its good to pen down my thoughts a civilian and a teenage boy , before i turn into a soldier for about 2 years

haha ok i guess its time i turn in and anticipate what's going to come , the following 1 year 10 months , with an optimistic mindset.

since its compulsory to serve it shall comply with the 'live life to the fullest ' motto and strive to do my best of what i can !

wait for my stories !

My Front Pages to Photography

2011-01-14T07:22:00.000-08:00

I love the reflection;D

As i recently got my Nikon D5000

Its a pretty good mid-range semi-professional DSLR camera that have similar hardware components as the more famed Nikon D90,
with the swivel screen that it posseses ,it makes photography at various angles easier
well, on the last December , i went out on a photoshoot session with Wenjie and Weijie around various parts and attractions of Singapore ,such as Chinatown and Marina Bay Sands area, and the above pictures are samples of what i took . Its rather amazing how Photography can display a wide array of perspective and how the mechanism of the camera works .
there's alot to photography that i have yet to finish exploring but it was a satisfying photo shoot and i am pleased at the potential of my D5000 :D

Photography might be a slightly more costly hobby than i have thought , with the eventual requirement of more accessories when i progress on , but it's worth lies on the dynamic memories etched into every individual photograph

The magic of the Chornicles of Narnia movies

2011-01-13T07:53:00.000-08:00

Every single movie of this series brings along a special and unique magical touch to it
,this song is especially good and fits Prince Caspian's theme nicely

and i gotta say that the Pevensie children , especially Lucy is downright adorable!;D
my Favourite Character !

Lucy was the youngest of the four Pevensie children and was the first one to discover Narnia through the wardrobe. Although none of her siblings believed her, Lucy went there several times before the rest of them came, finally realizing she was telling the truth all along. She was crowned as "Queen Lucy The Valiant" at Cair Paravel. Lucy was the most faithful of the four and never stopped believing in Narnia. Even in the scene in Prince Caspian where Aslan seems to have abandoned Narnia , her childlike faith and innocence paid off when she believed that Aslan will come for them until the end . I guess this is one of the traits that Christians should exemplify until the very end.

Narnia is one fantasy movie that on the soft side presents a slight theme of Christianity to it
"Since Narnia is a world of talking beasts, I thought he would become a talking beast there as he became a man here," he wrote. "I pictured him becoming a lion there because a) the lion is supposed to be the king of beasts; b) Christ is called the lion of Judah in the Bible." C.S Lewis

Overall a very nice filmography that got me wishing that it would not end yet/ wonder how would the carefree Narnian life be like :D

2nd post of the year !

2011-01-06T06:28:00.001-08:00

oookay , i gotta get myself to update my blog now , after much much procastination ahaha , yeah , time seems to fly when u are enjoying yourself/nth to do /after A levels /nuah-ing at home
ahh anyways along the way , many events happened , like the family trip to penang , my handphone upgrade to a motorola backflip android , my 'year-end sickness',my class christmas party at miss Neo's ,my long awaited DSLR camera , Nikon D500!,the free 3 months MioTV subscription i got, photoshoots with friends :D and countdown to 2011 with CoE bros etc ....
haha you know somehow i think my body got adapted to this stress-free life , life before NS , life before A levels results , and yet its nt a strategic time to work because i have barely a month left before enlisting !
this adapting is not...really optimal , because i basically spend my time lazing around,in front of the comp , the xbox360 ,completing GTAIV game the 2nd time(because the 1st time round i left out some unrepeatable stuff that count towards the 100% completiong thingy for the game progress),and also the MioTV ! man , i has got hundreds of movies and tv programmes streamed just for watching at your own pleasure ! the movies are not the most recent ones ,rather those that are about 1997-2008, but nevertheless good,such films like Narnia series , i am downright oblivious to the surroundings and the constant moving sands of time !

physical wise , my training routine has been rather impaired by the flu that i caught , but i am slowly reverting back to my 'planned-rigorous' routine, need to train for army!

ok anyways i shall dedicate seperate posts to elaborate on what i have touched on just now , goona go off first , its 3am alr ! (need to turn back my body clock!)

Brand new year , brand new phase , 2011!

2011-01-03T03:18:00.000-08:00

Happy new year all , 2010 have come and go , and i realise there's still alot for me to blog about the happenings ! , ok shall catch up tmr

Standard Chartered Marathon 2010

2010-12-11T11:36:00.000-08:00

directly 1 and half days after prom , on sunday morning was the standard chartered marathon! joined the half marathon of 21.1 km with weijie ,stephan and lester!we might not be the most prepared and optimal condition then due to the fast paced lifestyle of endless studies that came before ,
but no matter what,bros ,we persevered on till the end and managed to conquer our 1st half marathon of 21.1 km in one piece!:)
More to come Next year ,rocky style eh!:-D
army half marathon , and er addidas sundown and maybe standard chartered marathon again ? this time i shall train up hard and hopefully go for the 42 km!

All About Prom 2010 !

2010-12-11T11:22:00.001-08:00

class guys

CTG224 '2010!

okay prom night at Hilton was awesome , the events were a tad bit similar to GESS prom 2008 style , hmm haha , yeah
what make this night awesome and unique is that it struck me and made me think that how fast 2 years have passed , and all the memories of the first few days in sch , with me only have 1 friend from secondary school entering the same JC with me , then how i got to know each and everyone of my friends and their very own unique characteristics, its like just yesterday that we first came and now its prom alr !
its nice to see how people change and how short the time in JC is , but how effective it is in forging friendships and creating lasting memories , i guess the events that happened during these 2 years are the most dynamic yet.

haha prom night was spent most of it by walking around talking with people and actually taking photos !
i took quite a number of photos
the rest of them are in my facebook album ! its kinda hard to upload all to here
i guess i am gonna miss this batch of yjcians and the time spent there( be it i am going to spend one more year there anot !)

and Post prom , we went to the Helipad at central , somehow they reserved the club for yjcians and friends , haha it's my maiden experience on clubbing , can't say i am too used to it , but it was a nice exposure to me to the night life at the clarke quay area and i can say that its quite fun too !

1st post after Post A'levels !

2010-12-11T10:55:00.000-08:00

Hello there ! , yeap , finally past A' levels , and yeah , its time to actually be able to relax,play and unwind with no care about studies and all the worries that i have carried about with me all the while.And finally do all the stuff that i had always wanted to do !
oook , so what have i actually done ?
lets see , after the geog paper , events flashed past fast , and when i mean fast , its FAST
shopping for prom , then prom itself ,post prom , then the standard chartered run 2010 !
followed by meeting and catching up with friends, and changing of my handphone
and over this span of barely 2 weeks , i realised that life flashes really too fast in front of you when you are laid back , and without proper control , there'll be drawbacks and you end up missing events and also not living life to the fullest by being sick , even losing the purpose and goals in life to sloth and also the sense of time , just like speeding on the road is dangerous , excessive speed in life knocks you out senseless , even to the point where you are derailed from the sense of time
, yeah , i guess somehow having to lil sleep and too many late nights out , or even just on the comp or the xbox have derailing effects , ahh
caught a sorethroat almost straightaway after the standard chartered run , leaving me grounded 2 days from meeting my friends(i am really sorry !) and not long after i am currently down with cough ><
so yeah , i guess to live life to the fullest , we have to be in the pink of health too , to balance that 'ying -yang' by putting a leash onto the rushing pace of life and make sure that we get enough sleep and rest

and yeah , i also have a 'to-do' list for my post -A's and pre-NS itinery that mainly involves upgrading myself in terms of skills including the guitar and cooking(would've been glad to take up driving,but unlikely due to the little time left
) and also to keep fit and train up to survive BMT in the most optimal state and fitness i can prepare myself for :)

okay , past the halfway mark , 3 more papers to go !

2010-11-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

Just The Way You Are Lyrics

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
The way you are, the way you are
Girl you're amazing, just the way you are

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are. Yeah

Bruno Mars :Just the way you are

Okay , I've heard this songs quite alot of time , did'nt really took note of its name until recently , this song is nice , and its lyrics are Awesome!
it would be a really nice song for one to sing to his other half ! :D

Anyways , i am done with the week! , 3 more papers and i am officially done with A levels 2010! today's paper was okay, was a lil wierd , cambridge have a tendency to set wierd papers these days ? now the rest is up to the remaining 3 papers , if i don't screw up any , i would feel safer , especially for geog , then i am gonna take a well deserved break before my enlistment , prom,post prom , standard chartered marathon , gym , swim trek , guitar ,and games ! , cant wait

Anyways ,i am ending off with a verse that i came across to somewhere this week ,pretty relevent to what i am going through , the tiredness and all , i shall persevere on , 10 days more !

Isaiah 40:28-31 (New International Version)

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

Halfway through the A levels journey

2010-11-12T07:32:00.000-08:00

I am down with 5 A level papers , there is still another 5 more to go , spread over 3 weeks , i just can't wait for 30th Nov to end
ther's some papers that were quite okay and some that were not , hopefully those that were not are just parts of a full paper , i just hope that by God's grace i can redeem myself through the remaining papers.
this is indeed the toughest phase of life , of examination that i have ever faced yet , one that requires good to very good results to land a place in SMU,NUS or NTU , or an incomplete cert to rerun this race again . if you are somewhere in between , you'll have to spend 2 years as a conscript before deciding about your path
the countless nights i spent sleeping on the table , or unknowingly on my bed with my lights on and my notes as a pillow
the facing of this exams with flu was not that all encouraging too , in addition to the gut-wrenching feeling when i found that i screwed up 2 papers
i have even got to the point of burning out literally like a tire , whereby questions alone cant even register into my head , and all i want to do is just to sleep and be rid of this burden.
every sleep , and every power nap feels like an eternity , the calm before the storm , some form of escapism into one's world, like a kite soaring in the skies with the winds , until waking up is like someone pulling the string , and you come crashing down back to reality , the guilt felt of not having studied enough and the potential of letting people close to me down, the woes and uncertainties the path ahead carries , and all the options that lies within my control .
I am glad that out of this hectic schedule , i took out a pocket of time , to just hang around in the best of mother nature i can find ,and pray in the green field
Spending some time, with no study notes ,with nothing but just God's words and his presence in the nature , the most peaceful and assured i've felt since a long time.
I felt assured of the Lord's presence , of spiritual healing administer itself towards me , a kind of zen and reassurance that i would not be able to put in words.
the strength and motivation to carry on with this last few weeks of the exams , the assurance that through thick and thin , God will be with me step by step.
And Strangely , This facebook daily app just reinforced the message to me: On this day, God wants you to know
... that sometimes there are storms, and sometimes there is sunshine. But through all of the seasons of life, God is with you. Whether you are rejoicing or fighting back tears, God wants to share the moment with you. Allow that to happen, give thanks in the good times, ...ask for help in the difficult times. Take a minute right now and tell God what's on your mind.

indeed , praise the Lord. I will be optimistic and continue to give all my strength to do my best with all i am for the remaining of this A levels Journey , and if,unfortunately ,i have to do this again next year , i will do it with no fear or uncertainties

Above all

2010-10-31T10:12:00.000-07:00

As the Counter counts down towards 7 days , as however unprepared i might have felt ,and as thoughts of the consequences of not making it plagues my mind ever so often , let this beautiful song remind that regardless of the outcome ,above all ,God is in control and i shall not fear,shall not succumb but to continue to give my best and endure this one more month with faith

Every Singaporean Son - The Prequel or Prologue to my own story

2010-10-29T09:31:00.001-07:00

yep , just received the letter , enlisting on 8th Feb

A levels is still not over yet , persevere , and transit slowly through this phase

Countdown Timer to the Start of A levels and end of A levels exams

2010-10-24T19:02:00.000-07:00

okay i dunno if it is too late to put a timer , but i really sense the urgency , and , the fear of not able to finishing revision ....its really taxing

The cries of a mediocre student with mediocre results , no mattter what , he'll still continue marching on and have faith in the Lord to be in control through it all , no matter the outcome

The ending of a chapter coming close

2010-10-07T08:42:00.000-07:00

The Journey Through this chapter of life in JC is potentially coming to an end soon , it shows just how time flies ,Memories from day 1 when i stepped into the seemingly foreign environment till Graduation day soon on the 8th.... all seem so fresh and so just yesterday.

through this 1 and a half years , i've been exposed to plenty of perspectives ,views of life that i never expected, been through stuff that i never expected , made friends whom i can cherish , and most importantly , learnt from plenty of experiences.
gosh , today's the last official schoolday of lessons before being on our own . i think i would miss the people , the teachers and school environment , that never fails to bring back those nostalgic blast from 20 years into the past feel in the school

tmr's gonna have a class barbeque at the evening at wen jie's condo , most probably the last class activity before our A's , hope its a fruitful and enjoyable one , despite all the differences that i have seen between classmates , i can see the class has gotten closer together. i think i'll miss the class after graduation and when we go our seperate ways , thanks for being a part of my life in this 2 years!

the time of the exams is drawing close , i can't guarantee a smooth transition thereafter , but i know i am not in charge and with faith i shall not falter no matter what happens.
32 days , more , i shall give my all i've got !

Purpose

2010-10-01T10:18:00.001-07:00

Time flows constantly without stopping at any point, even a speedy blur of an object travelling at breakneck speed still has to come to an eventual stop
Sometimes , we question ourselves and even each other the purpose of our lives , largely it might be different for everyone of us , sometimes , when we enter various phases of our lives , our main purpose for that phase is predetermined for us ,be it like a student's purpose to do well and achieve satisfactory results that poses as a key to the next level , a Soldier serving his best for his unit and nation during the 2 years of his conscription of National service ,or a worker trying to beat the rat race or risk falling off the corporate ladder.

Other than the exhilirating weekend of Formula 1 at the city,

Its been a string of events ,largely monotonous , and yet many others might wish that they can still be stuck in this limbo, without the constraints of deadlines , biding their time , perfecting their knowledge and skills before going into the academic battlefield we all know as exams .

yet , we know that every second is ticking away , even if the clock stops working , the sands of time will still continue , depicting the irreversible flow of time .

one might be able to borrow some time , but then again it have to be returned , in a form of a year or so , and not a matter of a few weeks or months.

my purpose in this 36 to 61 more days of life is clear , it might not be enough to perfect up my skills , but i will do my best and maximise the time i have , and make sure that i am competent enough to face the battlefield and regardless of the outcome ,not look back and regret that i have never did my best.

Every single day of life I take , a Single Leap Of Faith I Take!

i shall update all the happenings soon , somewhere after 61 days ... until then

59 Days , then 82 days and it will potentially be all over ,A levels

2010-09-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

59 Days , then 82 days and it will potentially be all over ,A levels Examinations yeap thats what exactly the title says, all the Geography that i am struggling with , economics essays , chemistry concepts , and all gosh , i need to really mug ! i guess i have been giving ppl the impression that am some mugger , but actually i am far from it ! having several disciplinary issues with staying on the table mugging tons of explicitly indigestable geography contents ,econs concepts and doing chemistry tys ,at the same time trying to grasp math and inculcate the current affairs and general knowledge for gp ,
it is very hard , especially when electronic devices are soooo much appealing with the wifi function and effortless accessibility to the internet and this big blue online book known as facebook ! as opposed to the dull subjects that cant seem to go into my mind , and the body's autopilot function in escaping into dreamland when all gets DRY.
however , somehow my phone spoiled again , farewell G705 and i was equipped with another phone that was wifi-less , well , it helped curb the distractions to a good extent , but now i gotta stay away from the comp!
still it doesn't help , when i inevitably think of the consequences of A levels , awhat if i didn't do well enough to qualify for university ? what would i do? and it doesnt help much to think that the Army would be taking up 2 years of my time , thus darkening the prospects of retaking my Exams , bottomline : i gotta get over it and pull through this mess , once and for all!
here is what i thought , when i was out cold ,feeling very uncertain and doubtful
however ,logically speaking , with the limited time left , i should not think about it , but instead just go all out give my all ,and not break down , and don't think about the past or the consequences anymore , but just look straight at the nemesis in the face and push forward !
Its not time to breakdown , stop or even feel the slightest tinge of doubt due to whatever exogenic factors life 's gotta hurl at me , especially not now,regardless if I am gonna make it or not,I am going thru it with all I Got all the way ,no more uncertainties!

Study Break..

2010-08-10T06:27:00.001-07:00

Study Break , prelims starting on 16th August , hmm Enough said for now I guess . I neeed all the time to mug now

Dare to be man enough, to be strong enough to let go of the past,conquer all uncertainties, worries,and embrace the future,Dare to win !★

2010-07-17T23:21:00.000-07:00

Paradoxically.Is the Omega already coming barely after the Alpha started?

2010-07-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

a week and a half of stepping stone

2010-06-16T03:26:00.000-07:00

hello , its been awhile , hmm holidays are ending soon , then comes back the reality , of 130++ odd days of revisions before A levels , gotta make full use of the time given , to really make a difference and a change , gotta keep on moving forward and get focused !!

hahas , the past 2 weeks were awesome , went back to sch last week , theres a series of birthday guys and girls in june ! glad that you liked the gift its always worth it as long as you like it ! :)
Anyways I celebrated my birthday with 224
, it was a blast , and thanks for everything ! next went out with Coe ytd , celebrated my and jY's bday too !! settlers cafe was cool in SMU hahas !! pics in fb!!

off to doing revision ,please make it conducive and productive for me , and take the wheel always God

June holidays

2010-06-04T09:21:00.000-07:00

hmm , june holidays are here ahaha , although it does not really feel like a holiday , i had my fair bit of fun this first week , hmm 1st off , i completed my gta4 game alr , so this means that i wont have to touch my xbox again until after A levels !!! =) And no , if you think i am slugging out my all at home infront of the tV and Console , hehe , went to sch to study almost everyday , at the same time incorporated elements of the Gym , Cycling , Jogging and Swimming ! =) tmr gonna meet up with a portion of Coe for basketball , tis been quite awhile ! onward !
Hmm , as for CCa , its been quite clear that i am stepping down , letting go of the bow and arrows , although it wasnt as reflective and rewarding as being in the Boy's Brigade , i will still never regret , investing in my time and efforts in coming on every saturday mornings under the hot sun , it reflects on the memories ,bonds forged and getting to know these fellow members better! especially you
Its time to let go of the bow and arrows , and focus on my studies most importantly and also other aspects of life and sports. i swear that i am going to make full use of this June holidays ! Time is running out fast , i got to continue this race, and i will run until i finish the race , how tough it might be , i will trust the Lord of lords Jesus , with faith and hope in him!!!

One Thing

2010-05-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

One Thing
(Hillsong United)

One thing
One thing I desire
One thing I seek
To gaze upon Your beauty
Your majesty

In the day of trouble
You cover me
In the secret place of refuge
Lord I will sing

So I pray to You
So I pray to You

Lord Your Name is higher than the heavens
Lord Your Name is higher than all created things
Higher than hope
Higher than dreams
The Name of the Lord

All I want is You
All I want is You
Jesus

A very nice song and meaningful one

for the month of May , its been pretty busy , and packed , today is exactly 180 days left to the 1st A lvls exams of chemistry paper 1 , time is running out fast
just as mol is directly proportionate to concentration when volume is constant , so when volume is decreasing , we ought to increase the concentration to increase mole , likewise ,we cannot change time as time is getting shorter, 180 days , ought to focus and increase lvl of concentration with the end in mind for the most optimal result

Take the wheel, whenever things fall apart ,be it a broken gearbox or engine , i can look to you and let go of burdens all to you , you are always there , taking on the wheel and put things right for me somehow , some way ,Jesus !

190th post

2010-04-17T21:46:00.000-07:00

Haaa , my 190th post , so whats up these days ? nothing much , just suffocating under intense piles of homework that just keeps coming , well , need to start picking up my pace , one incentive for me to be motivated is that , i got an A for my Project work A levels result ! =DD , yeah , congrats to all those who got As and Bs , after all those times we went through , ahh memories , a total complement to what i received around a month ago , i will keep fighting , hanging on no matter how hard it goes , now currently doing up a 'cmaps ' assignment for Geog , Hydrolgical cycle , a large scale mind map , no matter how hard the journey goes , even when i feel like giving up , i shall look to my nemesis ,[now geog and econs ] right in the eyes and continue to perservere
if you try , you might fail , if you do not even try , you will fail
i am gonna try my very best !!!!
Chiong chiong chiong , mug mug mug , now the real thing starts !!!!

weekends ,Good friday , Universal studios

2010-04-04T07:29:00.000-07:00

hmm, the good friday weekends , came and went fast , did nth much productive , but oh well , gotta stop procastinating and get back on track yeah

went to Sentosa with my family hahas , caught a glimpse of the universal studios,the latest highlight , it was quite nice,it somehow didnt feel too singaporean , seemed as though i travelled overseas haha, then saturday , went for archery , tuition then Open air rally at the other church crystal tabernacle at pasir panjang road.

the events of Good friday and Easter sunday are so that they remind christians all over the world about the price God paid to bear the sins of the people of the past,present and future

Ohkay

Gotta really start mugging , i am like , derailed , need to pull myself back , not thinking properly with optimal capacity , stop this 'sian-ness' please , its a crucial period

Chains of the past , stop haunting me , stop restricting me , i am tired of waiting for something that would not come, when i leave the ball to your court ,you call the shots , call it well, don't run away.... like disappearing into a dark hole , it leaves me aimless,reflective , trying to kill time to wait for what the ball that you did not throw back

Around the Blocks

2010-03-28T08:08:00.000-07:00

Beautiful sunset

Lighting up the fire

The cubicle ! it is the mugging engine . i will be seeing it very often , a memorable element in college life

Anyways , blocks were done , its back to term 2 school life i guess ... challenges expectations ,

anyways sg26/224 had a class lan-outing/bbq / stayover yesterday , it was fun , the bulk of the pictures are with the others hahas , fun times , hahas , oh well , its time to hit the books again !
Woots , mugger -riffic term starting !!! >.> well , i am armed with a set of goals and motivations to keep going on , take a chance and make a change , and Breakaway!

I shall not let history repeat itself again , the greatest powers cannot change history , but the actions of a man can make history!

All the things you do and words you say , do you know it takes my breath away

My 1st March post

2010-03-19T07:31:00.000-07:00

My equipment upgrade , from my G705 , this time i jumped brand and changed to a nokia X6 , pretty good phone , close in similarities to the iphone at a rather economical price , the upgrade of 5800 , it has lived up to my expectations so far , pretty interesting with a nice 5 mp camera ...

Yeap , this is the only good thing that happened to me in March so far , somehow i am plagued with a series of unlucky events, haizzz keeps coming after one another ,catching me off guard and like a arrow peircing my ego , esteem ...temporarily...

Block test next week , am i prepared ? not really !

however , even as these badcomings keep popping up , i will not bow and give up , when the going gets tough , the tough gets going .... wake up calls or whatever , how stressed i am , i will take you on , head on ....on a long term basis i may not win today , however , if i dare to struggle today , i will dare to win tomorrow . i might not do well for my blocks , but i will continue to give it my all , i gotta do it for A levels , i Must do it by then , I Will do it .... and not disappoint those around me .

I will live , to love you , i will live a child in awe of you

2010-02-22T07:46:00.000-08:00

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

And it starts all over again

2010-02-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

After CNY , the short holidays , its time to hit back to reality again , harsh reality of assignments , time constraints ,time pieces , juggling between finishing up tutorials to studying for a test , and also , juggling between acedemic and physical fitness , well , i am really dead beat , tired even though i supposedly had 8 hours of sleep after a few sleep deprived days , my conquest of acheiving at least a silver for napfa at 6th March , at the same time , keep up with my seemingly now struggling pace of study carries on , i am really tired ,really stressed out i So do not need to deal with this now :
every point of time , every step , when i least expected it , i am always forced to make a choice within a short deadline , while trying to make choices rationally with my will and in a nice way does not at some times produce what i wanted ,it kinda made me pissed, and how badly i want them , the perpertuators , to buzz off and get away from me , its like everytime choices of this genre forced upon me , they have never been at the least good , and , its time consuming and, even moral questioning to a certain extent,I may not make the most optimal choices at times ,but, some should just learn to know their limits, have some manners and not talk like they are above others and respect other's decisions, it pisses me off really big time

anyways CNY was good , i kinda appreciate the importance and warmth of my own families , and those that i see around me , i should perhaps blog more bout it next time , anyways , there was a lo hei buffet at church las saturday , it was fun =D

I will continue to carry on , and make the most optimal time management decisions , and Trust in God in every step that I take

Take all of me

2010-02-09T09:08:00.000-08:00

Take all of me
Hillsong united

You broke the night like the sun
And healed my heart with Your great love
Any trouble I couldn't bear
You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin
And takes the weight of the world

I love You
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
Take all of me

You stand on mountain tops with me
With You I walk through the valleys
Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and I give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything

Away from the fireworks of emotions and lethargy , listen to what i have to say without marginalising me , You are all,You are present , Lord

Never fails to depict what i have to exude within in words ..

2010-02-09T09:01:00.000-08:00

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Precisely , goldinuniverse

Lethargy

2010-02-07T09:18:00.000-08:00

Didnt have much time to do my post of the week , well lets just say that it had been eventful , and i went for the safari zoo run etc , alrights shall post more next time , gotta pack some sleep now ... really tired

Urban Hiking /the Jc1s comes in for orientation

2010-01-28T06:00:00.000-08:00

Today is the 1st day of orientation , alot of new people , i was one of them last year , look how time flies , looking at the first few hours of the jc1s mingling with each other , just brings back nostalgia of my own experience then , i was firm upon becoming an OGL this year then after the end of our jam and hop , but well , due to the cancelled postponed china trip , whose original timings coincided with OGL interviews and the Ocip trips , i missed all of them during the holidays =.= man... its a nice opportunity to know and bond with more people , both Jc1s and Jc2s , ohh well... next time then .... time really flies ,as i look back ,its been more than a year since i left GESS and now i am gonna do the A levels at the end of the year
, there are some Jc1 seniors i know of who decided to leave for poly education after orientation , oh well , its been a pleasure meeting and knowing you , all the best in your future endeavours and keep in touch !
These 3 weeks of school have been SUPER tiring , to the point that i fall asleep the moment i lie down on the bed / sofa lol , but oh well , it is expected in a sense
When the going gets tough , the tough gets going ! I am going to start with the End in Mind , which is ,most preferably, to get into Psychology in NTU or NUS !
And i will look to the Author of my Faith and Salvation always , especially in times of having the feeling to stop . No matter how hard it is , how stressful it is , how i feel like i cant manage it anymore ,with trust and faith I will keep going on , I know I can , I will , I must =D , Its just these remaining months before the A levels exams in addition , I will make my JC life exciting and accomplishing , I am going to go for archery trainings even on the Saturday slots if i am nothing on , and try to get into a place for the archery school team for A divisions , its only until April , i gotta perservere and hang on

Anyways What about urban hiking , well we learnt about urbanisation and stuff in human geography , and just nice , for some reasons , i decided to try go home from raffles place mrt with an alternate way , and in the event of looking for the nearest bus stop with buses that i can take home to , i hiked for quite some distance before reaching one, and observed the surroundings , now i know why the processes of suburbanisation and counter urbanisation is taking place , and food for thoughts , plenty of vehicles zooming around , there are alot of young office workers by the side of the road smoking lol and basically , it is really an urban jungle , with constructions working admidst the busy offices and surging traffic, it is really the central business district , with the IR that is almost to its completion not far off in the background haha , its kind of fun in a way being the only guy in school uniform with a backpack walking admidst office workers with the words'Busy/I am in a hurry' plastered onto their face lol , sometimes i really enjoy observing the lifestyle of other people ,oblivious to everyone , one day i really want to go and observe the lifestyle of different people going about in different places on their daily lives on places such as Denmark ,USA and other countries etc
Anyways , somehow this urban trekking experience kind of sparked up my almost dead interest for human Geog , i hope it helps much =D

To wrap things up , and to end things off on a lighter note , i hope that i can get to know more fun and awesome J1s and J2s[those that i have not known yet]
sometime soon haha , maybe go see the jam and hop session at the last day of orientation

TGIF and Astons ! =D

2010-01-22T09:50:00.000-08:00

Today , was a friday , so i went sch for breakfast with wei jie before assembly , then normal lessons , interesting practical , then we ordered pizza , due to some screwed timetabling and timings , it ended up with 3 guys and 6 girls consuming 4 pizzas lol , had quite a nice pizza feast , then , after school ended , went to print out the Safari run forms , me ,Edwin , Wei jie and Wen jie are signing up for the safari run 2010 on 6 febuary haha , then i did a 'self' PT , bleep test lol , it was tiring , but my level inproved by quite a little haha , then went to study with Branson , did some maths , then , along with Branson , Quan yi,Mahin and Stephan went off to Sembawang Shopping centre's Astons for Dinner ! nice food , delicious and value for money , =D , we semi cam-whored ,then after eating , chatted until around 10 plus before going home haha

I really had an enjoyable time today , with my fellow classmates , =D

hope to spend more time and outings together haha

Stuff

2010-01-22T09:18:00.000-08:00

Its time to Get out of this , soar up and high again , fly solo with no strings attached .

Changes are the constant , but some things remain constant , And Friends , i appreciate all of that , all of you

I understand that maybe its better some way or other , But i am still standing by my stand , i will be there , be it for you , for him or for her , no matter what you all think , about everything , each other and me , i will carry on and continue , to do what i think is the right and the best choice , i know my limitations, but it shall not hinder me
No matter Who you are , During the past 1 Year , You have coloured my life , you shared your journey with me , and mine with you , went through certain ups and downs together ,I thank you all for being there for me some what or others
I Appreciate that , and i enjoy all these bits of moments with you
And we shall go through this one year together ,
For these , i would carry on ,i will be with all of you,no matter how tough it will be, and for these , i would not look down on myself regardless of my decision

Yep....
This pretty much sums up on my thoughts for the week =D
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Thoughts

2010-01-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

Drank Coffee today , that is like the sole lifeline that i can always count on to keep me awake for the whole of school hours without failing me , (My Elixer HP potions, wahahaha)
I guess perhaps i am not an avid drinker thats why i can feel the difference , although at times it feels like running on emergency powers , but its still better than not.
Thats what we do now everyday in school , study , exercise , talk , chill , stress , tests and the cycle repeats

Hmm , it is always said that Changes are constant , and i agree , however they are not always what you would expect of , a series of events leads to another , and these strands causes knots over knots that seems to be very shallow on the surface but it is actually very complicated
I dunno why it has to come to be like this , but no one asked for it , it is just the way how the events unravel that turns into this

There are times when I dunno who to turn to, or which way or how to tread on , for these strands of events that looked so mundane on the surface otherwise, except to silently Pray to God

When moving like the wind , Flying Solo with Him is the only blissful thing without any strings attached i can think of at times like for now

No matter what , I would Carry on , Flying Solo with no strings attached , hopefully being the mediator, maybe it is not the best choice , but i am not going to lose any bonds with anyone because of the knots and rifts.I really do not want to

you cannot free yourself from a problem by shutting your eyes to it. To free yourself from a problem you have to acknowledge it and face it with your eyes and heart open.

You know , after thinking through so much , i really want to take up Psychology in University , to really understand and help people to release the knots , solve the complications and to know how people think and the mechanisms i finally realised the importance of this , after roughly knowing how to analyse what that is beneath that apparently seemingly mild surface , i really want to delve into the subsurface to right what that is supposed to be

I know i might be sensitive, wrong , and fall down at times , but I am still Open to opinions and i know God is there for me
Like I 've said , I will never look down on myself despite whatever circumstances and the Only one that can Judge me for my actions is God

Be of Good Courage, and he shall strengthen your heart,all ye that hope in the LORD
: Psalm 31:24

1st week of school as a JC2

2010-01-15T07:10:00.000-08:00

Woah , TGIF , the first week of school , really went very slow , the 1st day , chem test , 2nd day econs test , then hw starts piling after one another on top of the holiday assignments , to which i have finished all by wednesday thanks to my last week of holiday mugging spree , things to update this week , the new week , of school , of the mugger year , of the last year in school uniform , things sure changed pretty fast , but the memories ,birthday celebrations , bintan camp etc , they stay , CTG 110'09 , my OG , my first friends from 2nd Feb 2009 , is officially collapsed in 2010 >< then after orientation , we were soon split into our Subject groups , SG26 were a little shaky at 1st , but still we got on well , class outings etc haha , and countless hours of mugging , so in 2010 , SG26 becomes CTG 224 '10 , alright , with a 2 new classmates onboard , and left a few behind , am gonna miss hanging out some of you yeah Jerome bro, shu shan , simin ,sunil,kugan,yasmin ,amanda , valerie, all the best in your future endeavours , jia you and never give up , u can surely do it , in what ever u are doing now :)

and to CTG 110'09 its been nice knowing u all , do all ur best in ur respective places now , and keep in touch !

finally , to CTG 224 '10 : This is it , our last year in school wearing school uniforms ,it would be an honour spending this year with u all , with A' Levels glaring at us down the end of the road , but it is not so far away , 8 months more or so , we have been thrugh alot together , through PW , mugging , lectures and tutorials , now its the time , to run this stretch of road , flat out with full blast , and jiayou! All the best !Its just this period of less than a year , give it ur best shot !

He who never try to flap his wings would never know how high he can fly !

Anyways , back to my observations in school , it seems that there are also alot of muggers around , hmm , finishing holiday homework or really chionging i dunno and open house was quite a nice experience on wednesday , nth much out of the ordinary but yeah , it was better than i expected
and also , JC2 is really tiring , homeworks are piling constantly , and my body clock / late sleeping style has finally took its toll , as i am not 100% recovered from my december holidays sick spree , the lack of sleep made me felt even more tired than ever especially from wednesday onwards , a few minutes into a boring tutorial / lecture , once my mind digress and wander off to another topic not academic related , destination lullaby soon sets in , although i stillv managed to understand the stuff that i missed after some intense revision and inquiry with friends after lessons , this cannot go on , i shall change my body clock , sleep early , practice effective timne management , and drink coffee [Mana potions when my mana level is low ] refer to my ' studying as a game post ' lol , i shall not let the phenomenom of dozing off in class happen to me if i can help it =)
Speaking of PE , woah , they are really training us for NS , intense , somemore extra training sessions for bronze and nil napfa holders on mornings , but all these would be rewarding in the long run , anyways , planned a mini-pull up session timetable with some of my classmates , we would help each other with sets of pull ups on every break before food , i hope all these training , i can atleast clear my napfa silver :)
btw Archery practices are resuming , and on saturdays too , man >< .. my sleep late morning haha , but well , i think with effective time management , i can keep it under control for the time being , on my future saturdays , i plan to go for the study fellowship at church after my archery practice , it would be a fully packed saturday then ..

ok thats all on this update until then .... =)

Hello 2010

2010-01-01T08:25:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year all , 2009 has been an event ful year , met alot of new awesome people, grew closer to my friends, experienced events that were both good and bad , and the events and activities whizzed through faster than i would have ever thought , 2010 , its a new year , a new beginning , a fresh start , also , a Mugger year , yeah A levels , gotta get As okay =D , its not something to be taken lightly , hmm i know its going to be a tough and painful year , to struggle through the countless hours of mugging and revisions for the big As , however , i am not the only one going through this , there will be plenty of the other candidates going through that , and friends will be there , CoE will be there , Churchies will be there , to run this lap along with
. Anyways yesterday , or say , last year 31st dec , went out with CoE to vivo for countdown , then supper and a trek to the henderson waves , and ton-ned till around 430 before sleeping for an hour , then breakfast at telok blangah mall market before setting home , then went out with my relatives in the afternoon , relaxed at pasir ris beach and flew a kite haha nice feeling to just lie down on the beach , look at the kites fly , the people fishing and moving about , feel the cooling breeze and just relax and think about life , , pretty much like the calm before the storm eh , well , school's starting on 11 jan , next week gonna be a mugger week , to finish up the revisions and home works ,

this 1 and 1/2 months of calm before the storm (holidays) will cease in a weeks time to make way for the less than a year serious intense mugging and stress from school soon for the A levels

as the new year comes by and the old goes , leaving behind experiences , it would be nice to have some general new year resolutions to stick by and share
here goes :
1.) I would never look down on myself , on any circumstances and state , and
instead do my best to break out of that ordeal
2.) As a 1st generation Christian , I still have alot to learn on my walk with God , i hope to grow closer and not further to God this year, to have faith and trust him even in the darkest hour and amidst all the expectations, demands, requests,to take some time to ground myself in God
3.) To be positive about everything and look at everything with the perspective of hope and optimism
4.) To be able to talk and change the mindset of the people in any emotional trouble around me , to make them see things in the light that would make them happier
5.) To be strong and not be affected by any negative thoughts that people might think about me , action speak louder than words =D
6.) To become closer to my friends in sch /church and have the courage to take the initiative get to know more new people from School and church and
more resolutions to think of , but thats all for now

Christmas

2009-12-24T09:12:00.000-08:00

You called my name
Reached out Your hand
Restored my life
And I was redeemed
The moment You entered my life

Amazing grace
Christ gave that day
My life was changed
When from my shoulders
Fell the weight of my sin

So it’s with everything I am
I reach out for Your hand
The hope for change
The second chance I’ve gained

On You I throw my life
Casting all my fears aside
How could greater love than this
Ever possibly exist

Consume my thoughts
As I rest in You
I’m now in love
With a Saviour
Bearing the marks of His love

So I’ll wait upon You now
With my hands released to You
Where a little faith’s enough
To see mountains lift and move

And I’ll wait upon You now
Dedicated to Your will
To this love that will remain
A love that never fails

Yep Second Chance, =D the reason why we celebrate Christmas and that he was born ,
anyway , these few days have been quite busy , Church for the Choir practice , and i attended the Church camp =P it was fun , however these 2 weeks i fell sick , and to the point of 38.6 degrees high of fever , oh well , yep Christmas i here , Gonna perform with the youth Choir and tuffers at church later , the best service of the year usually goes to the christmas service haha , then gonna swim and have dinner at my cousin's house , well shall blog bout it next time then . =D

When it comes to December

2009-12-11T07:02:00.000-08:00

When ever December comes , every year , for the past years , it will be holidays .... a couple a good times hanging out with friends , family , and basically people that you cant hang out much with because of school and work normally , then , there will be Christmas , outings , new year count down etc and of course , ample amount of time for one to take a small break and just chill , relax and do nothing pretty constructive like playing back mmorpg like Cabal now and all ,but altogether , i find the month of december , it is the month of conclusions, of reflections down memory lane ,spent during the time of break to wrap up new experiences and insights made throughout the course of the year , to analyse and to improve , to savour the good memories , triumph and ties made , and to box away the bad memories ,hurt , loss of ties away and only leave the essence of experience .

You know, after much thoughts , and all the ravaging and rifts that come out between people i know and all the stuff going around me and my life for this Year , i have tried , but at times , i had managed to and also failed to turn situations around , this has led me want , to really understand how people think and really be in a position to turn a thought of lost and darkness into a glimmer and then, a flower of Hope , from endless quarrels to lasting peace and serenity , i want ,to be in a position , whereby my words , would carry weight , and not be blown away , this has led me to be interested in the field of Psychology , and yeah , that is a strong option for me and i would not mind taking Psychology as a university course next time , my subject requirements meet it , now it is just the results , yeah , next year is JC2 , it will be a very stressful one , so , i am gonna perservere on and soar higher than now

This is still my 1st december post haha , anyways , so whats up these few days ? for me , my trusty G705 did a roll out on me and the navigational buttons just stopped working , so i sent my phone for repair , with no promise from the people that the phone memories will be retained , so i potentially lost most of my contacts >.> . so ya , people that i know , those that have my number and, especially those that want to contact me , or me to contact you , please give me your number yeah ! sms telling me who you are , msn or facebook me , thanks

Hmmm , yeah , then other than some family stuff happening ,also, went cycling with my relatives and family at east coast last sunday ,haha there is nothing much that us yet to happen , tomorrow's 4H08 reunion , finally ,its been quite some time yeah =D
Then , as Christmas is coming , the Charis youths and the tuffers are coming up with 2 Choir songs , there will be practices , then also , youth camp is coming up next week , i am quite excited bout this one , a nice time to get closer to God and also bond with the rest of the youths ... so its getting busy soon ! and oh ya , i got food poisoning last saturday , due to a case of uncooked thai cuisine and egg >< , luckily i recovered fast , phew , then went for 2 3/4 days of solo study at bukit merah mac and library , wasn't quite productive for finishing holiday assignments i should say , but nevertheless productive for knowledge , (yeah , library has a good load of books to catch my attention )

Humanities trip to KL

2009-11-30T22:08:00.000-08:00

Nice view from the causeway on the way back

The Church of Malacca

Playing cards etc on the bus !

Peranakan streets

ViVo!

Chinatown at petaling Jaya

Times square and merdeka museum

The LRT system

University of Malaya

the 100 metre flagpole !

Mischievous Monkey

The tall standing twin towers!

Their toll gates

Nice view from Putrajaya

Hello , its high time i blogged about the humanities trip ! haha , 1st let some of the pictures do the talking ! the rest of the photos are up in my FB =)

anyways , on the 1st day , upon reaching Malaysia , through the customs etc

we went to have breakfast at some roadside coffeeshop at Johor, nice food , but the penang prawn mee is spicy haha

then after that , we embarked on the north-south highway for a 3-4 hours ride to Putrajaya , the economic hub of Malaysia , impressive arcitectural design ... the place is similar to the city hall of singapore , in terms of the functions of the buildings , however , the place is much less crowded then city hall.

after Putrajaya , we were on our way to KLCC , the shopping mall right under the petronas towers , the towers really catch my eye and can be seen faraway , ate manhattan fishmarket for dinner , nice =D , but didn't have much space for shopping time , after that back to our hotel in Nilai .

Day2 , we went to the Batu caves , climbed 300 steps up , the view from there is nice , had a nice recap on stalactites and stalagmites haha , some what i liked the upwards view from inside the cave ,kinda felt like i time traveled to the past eras

then , we went to Merdeka square , a place with similar significance to the Padang of Singapore , where it marked the beginning of Malaysia , with the tallest flagpost of south-east asia , then , we went for some shopping , then to this mall known as sungei wang , sold pretty cheap and nice stuff , and dinner at Delifrance .

the next day , we went to the Istana of malaysia , took photos with the guards , then to the university of Malaya , the sister school with relations to the National university of singapore , then to their museum , which was quite impressive for a university museum , then we went to Chinatown at Petaling Jaya next, through the LRT (not sure what is it called in KL) system in KL , nice place for bargains hehe , the chinatown beared similarities to that of singapore , it is the place where all the chinese congregate during the times of riots in the past , then we went to Times square next , the largest shopping mall in South east asia , nice , there are 14 stories , and according to my friend there is a theme parked housed there . anyways , we ate at a restaurant known as Vivo , at a low price =D

then the next day , we went to Malacca , toured the museums , and the streets of the peranakan , nice , after that , we had peranakan cuisine at a well known restaurant before we embarked on our journey back to Singapore and YJC

Overall an enjoyable and satisfying trip !!! =D

Jason 's birthday celebration

2009-11-22T06:32:00.000-08:00

went to watch 2012 with CoE , nice movie , u read my mind bros , i wanted to watch it when i heard ppl at sch talking about it , theres quite a few references to Geography , and the Bible haha , overall its a nice movie 4.5 stars
after that , we went to eat at just acia , nice place , with free flow of drinks and ice cream haha , then after that , jason left for clarkquay , while we went to the arcade , played the basketball hoops thingy with WL, then after that , i finally got to play animal kaiser , the machine that is at the provision shop opposite YJ , lol though it feels wierd with 2 17 yr old teens playing it , but it was quite fun lmao , JY gt a silver-Foil indian cobra while i got a normal golden eagle LOL , after that we walked arnd the shops , loads of nice stuff , a heaven for collectors haha , well thats about it for now , its been long since the last clique outing , so its enjoyable hanging out with them

anyways , so whats the deal nowadays ?
well now i am quite occupied with the plans for the english lesson plan for the china trip , then tomorrow ,i am setting off to KL for the humanities trip , coming back at thursday , hopefully i will bring back wonderful stories in the form of pictures through the lens of my camera

God bless and i pray for a safe journey ahead ! =D

My 170th post , the end of PW , and release of promos results and more to come

2009-11-16T07:07:00.000-08:00

our SG group photos with miss neo ( taken from claire's blog =) )
yeah , PW op is finally over and done =)
all should be okay , i guess , some of my SG mates actually tore up their cue cards and form an 'SG 26' before the wind blew it =(

haha , anyways it was cool , , then hanged around in sch after that

then over the weekends , one of the main highlights is that i bought a camera , that was on offer at Harvey Norman at millenia walk on its 8th anniversary , it is a Nikon Coolpix C-220 model , pretty nifty and compact

10.0 megapixels =D

hope i will be able to tell my stories through the lens of this camera in a nice way , on the upcoming Kuala lumpur and China Trips =)

Lastly , my promos results , phew ,

before the release i was like , kinda worried , i don't want to think about retaining or taking supplementary papers , and i prayed , and well ,
i got promoted to J2 ! phew , i can finally heave a sigh of relieve of uncertainties
Thank you lord for putting me through , though they may not hit the standard that i was aiming forit was better than i expected and i managed to pass all ,
now , i am gonna prepare and run this 2nd lap , run it well and finish it gloriously !

For your name and in your name !

Project Work with a twist §

2009-10-31T11:31:00.000-07:00

last week is pw and mt intensive week , well as u can see , only these 2 subjects were on the timetable the whole week , yeah , ok let the pictures do the talking ,i am gonna get back to work after some break* 'procastination' I and R draft , , and chinese A lvl on monday . gotta chiong already ! Perservere on , and after the Oral Presentation , Then thats the real Rest for awhile !!!

SG outing and post exam activities

2009-10-22T10:27:00.000-07:00

for more photos of the sg bbq / outing / overnight , refer to facebook =D

fun outing , awesome people =D nice experience

we did , bbq , volleyball , 'trolleyercoaster' , 'basketball',movie (500 days of summer) nice movie , bowling , then ghost stories , card games , and the sunrise! , followed by breakfast and Lan , yeah , counterstrike and my maiden experience with L4D lol , after that went home tired out haha

then tuesday , intensive workout session with weijie and edwin , ran 4 km , gymmed 1-2 hrs with steph,branson and siyang , went swimming , then bowling with mahin lol
then thursday , rodney house went to safra to bowl again , haha , talk about bowling thrice within a week =) was enjoyable , then went to lunch with several fellow rodney-ians , then went off to return library books , then went to tiong , met ex-gessian edwin to chill for awhile b4 heading home ^^
ok thats it for now , preparing for other sch activities tmr with sleep

Academic warfare : What is it about

2009-10-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

if u collate an rpg like structure to academic warfare aka mugging for examinations , u get simillar aspects ,
such as,common competition between friends and players , the pvp and pk system , people will help u along ur journey in the rpg and compete with honour , but some might secretly be foes waiting to backstab and bring u down in this enviroment of the survival of the fittest ,
the examinations being the high level boss that u need to get pass ,
knowledge being the experience points required for u to lvl up and grow stronger to be able to deal with the boss , simillar to rpg games , there is grinding involved , in other terms , training by killing off monsters to gain exp , this can be depicted by the practice questions that u do to prepare urself for the papers ,

then there are quests for u to complete , this is yet again portrayed by the homework and assignments given by teachers , then there is the option of party , which is the collaborations between players to train or do quests , depicted by group studying and group project , one of the boss that needs to have a particularly strong party would be the project work subject

also , there are the potions , namely mana potions and Hp potions , mp refers to the persons's capacity to be able to cast skills , mp can be portrayed by energized and refreshed brain cells , thus , mp potions come in the form of water or other thirst quenching drinks that are able to hydrate the braincells to keep them fresh and alive , hitpoints or hp , refers to the person's health , in this case the person's abiliy to stay awake and hp potions can come int eh form of coffee or other caffeine carrying producs of energy boosters such as essence of chicken

lastly , training grounds and mobs , the place where one mugs , like an rpg game , there are different preferences some people prefer the cosy and quiet enviroment of their homes , while other prefer the peaceful but crowded libraries , these places comes with the pros and cons

well basically this is , roughly , from my perspective of linking academic warfare to an RPG game ,

Academic Warfare : 'A'Levels make your experience a quality one , set your own legacy

Promos over ..

2009-10-16T08:45:00.000-07:00

promos are over yeah , but the race is so long from over , and this year , this lap of race , i might even need to re -run it, void of the many distractions and mistakes made , if it did not run well this time , geog was like a flaming arrow with the power of the earth being shot into the soaring wings, ... oh well , in any case , rest for now , and an all out academic warfare would begin shortly , the boost , to run this segment of the race known as A lvls , 3 laps or 2 laps ? The Academic warfare starts . All out ,full force ..

off note :after recent weeks of sleep deprived nights , and a waging academic warfare with promos , i am tired , and need just this bit of small break to blog , :)

next post : Academic warfare : think of it as an RPG format , the In think at this crucial lap ?

Health mapping CIP

2009-09-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

Last saturday , was the CIP for some of the CCAs in YJ , Archery too , went to AMK and did health mapping for the residents there , we were split into groups that are randomly chosen , i was grouped with Mike , Shaunice and Yu zhen , then proceeded with the health checks we made to some of the willing residents of the block . Heard some of their stories , and for some , i can see their state of livings and all , i am really glad that i can at least help them out someway or another , people , just be grateful and feel lucky of what u have now in life , and don't complain for more .
Anyways , lunch was provided , and we did the 2nd shift after lunch , then all was done , and we were dismissed at around 3 20 ++ , that was earlier than i expected v, they wrote 6.30 at the LMS haha , good day , got to know more YJcians and also , get to help with the community
Went to church after a quick bath back at home , got to know more people and i am sure i felt touched from a particular prayer.. sometimes , its amazing how people know what u are thinking even though u didn't say it .. hmmm

well anyways today , at sch , a typical monday , i passed my chemistry CA 4 !!, finally , woah , well then , during pe , i gymmed , with branson , then ran with Edwin , , woah , got exhausted after that , its been quite some time since i gymmed haha , anyways found out that some of my friends wanted to join the Nike human race , which takes place after Promos , interesting , i might consider haha ... okay , tmr , econs mini test , Pw stuff , and ecoins essay test the next day , and gp and mt PROMOS this friday , , really hope to be able to do it i dun really like the ideea of repeating .. ahhha , okays, time to end this post , and get back to the life of a typical 'JC1' Hero '.....

A bundle of choices , lead me on the right ones

2009-09-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

A very nice and moving song , by brooke fraser of hillsong united , touching when i was listening to it the 1st time
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Today , i ' ve been through more than i expected , 1st , i am supposed to go to school , to hand in my chinese essayS , well spent quite a reasonable amount of time into studying , did stone awhile though , in the freezing cubicle in the library , haha , blame econs and geog , in the end , it was a solo flight from the start to the end , unplanned , yet , yet , it was accomplishing in certain other aspects , though stephan did not manage make it there in the afternoon , on the mrt ride to sch , i was reading a book i got from the library titled 'Escape to God' , basically talks about the author's experiences with God ,one of the many things that i learnt is that , we are always given the freedom to choose from a bundle of choices , just that, we should make it right , and that , wherever we are , God is always with us , the author's experiences, well , in a sense he reminded me of one of my BB officer , and yes , God is with us , even now , its just whether we should hold on , or let go and flow with the temptations .Oh yes , and to continue , i would say that , yes , my prayers were heeded , simply as such to say , last year , around this time , i got tempted to play with handphone game , and i just couldn't get off the train of addiction, however much i want to , till suddenly , an unknown error occured and my games function got freezed , while now this time , i suddenly got denied from facebook access , this , is a sign , that , i should be rid of distractions and be like a mugger that i am supposed to be now
well , there are somemore things , that i couldn't at this point of time , explain in words yet.
btw , off topic , i found a shop selling kamen rider and other stuff imported from japan at china square , Ng's collection , should be quite well known among local kamen rider fanatics , anyway got Blade king form and glaive figures at reasonably cheap prices wahaha

Interwines

2009-09-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

VERSE 1:In Your surrenderAs You laid down Your life
You took up a sinner's cross
And Your life rescued mine

VERSE 2:In this redemptionLove and mercy displayed
You lifted my eyes to see
That Your truth never fails

PRE CHORUS:Lord of the heavens
King of all days
Without You my world slips away
Redeemed by Your mercyConsumed by Your grace
Now I live for You

CHORUS:I'm found in the arms of love
For Your love
It has saved my soul
I'll run to Your arms of love
Your light's gonna lead me home

VERSE 3:Glorious Saviour
In Your light I am free
The things of this world will fade
Still You are all that I need
BRIDGE:At Your cross
I lay my burdensAt Your feet
Where Your love covers
All I've done
Now I walk with You Lord

hmm sept holidays , also known as the booster pack for mugging , be it o lvls , a lvls , promos , etc ,most students are mugging =x i still remember this time last year , where my journey of change really begaN , so , am i ready to make that change again , yes , i should be. should not lose out , and spend an extra year in YJ because of that , i know my combi , 2 arts , the essays , but since i chosen them , i must strive on , things happen for a reason , but no matter what , gotta keep going on , and leave no regrets
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tmr is the 1st day of holidays , hope i can really achieve much this week
btw i went to church last sat , it was good , i just felt this feeling that i wouldnt feel somewhere else , in the holy house of God , got to know more people , also felt that warmth of family feeling down there , i hope my faith would stay and grow like a seed in time to come

Renewal

2009-08-30T06:15:00.000-07:00

overview , this week is kind of the same , after school , go eat dinner (chicken rice opposite YJC ) with wei jie and branson , then back to sch library , then mugging session along with the people who are also there , then wed , murphy 's law got me , something screwed up tih my EOM article , then gotta go library on thurs to get that book , after my dental , so i solo-ed at bukit merah library , found the book luckily , and mugged there for sometime , hey , i felt that sense of motivation , something which i never felt since after my O levels , the urge to do do everything to my best , i received a full blast from the past , back to those times, when i was mugging in the library , a lil too last minute , either flying solo or with ZH , those were the days ... haha , then friday , chem spa , did my best , it should be okay , stayed and studied in library again , this time stephan and alwyn joined , haha .. then saturday , i wasn't able to make it to ZH 's birthday celebration with COE ,Really sorry , haiz didnt' know that murphy's law would apply so frequently at times , unpredicted clashes >< , i went to my tutor , ethel's church for an open rally ,as i initially planned , at 1st i was kinda nervous as i only know ethel there , but yep , the people were nice , and , there's several renewals for me , felt the presence of a feeling so strong , and woah , just re-enacted plenty of stuff yeah and i got to know more people there hehe and it amazes me sometimes to see that how people who knows someone u know , be it acquantances ,sch mates , relatives or even friends would cross paths with u occasionally =) . to summarise this sometimes : i thank God for the Angels that help us in our lives and supporting us and guiding us back on the track of righteousness , unknowing that they themselves are one . =) Renewals of faith , Renewals of commitments and Renewals of motivation . Alright , 43 days to go , its time to take flight again

2009-08-27T08:36:00.000-07:00

Its high time i blog for awhile , phew dunno what to say , been through a roller coaster of thoughts these few days , stayed up late at sch library in attempts to mug , but these few days , i have been thinking abit deeper and more into things , sometimes things happen for a reason , and sometimes , when certain things happen and murphy's law , which states that 'anything that might go wrong will go wrong ' kicks in to you , and just to u frequently , then its a very crappy feeling , sometimes , i am envious of how things seem to flow so smoothly for some people , and how they manage to maintain that high level of charisma among that big group of friends , while for me , it has always been an upward slope on the beginning , then a gradual downward on the end , people change , and yes their views change too , whilst i try to change , i find that this part still gets me , and hunts me down , badly , limiting to me only making of 'hi-bye' friends and i find that i am actually so 'alone' at times , with little people on the same wavelength as me, hard to understand me thoughts and click , i had once thought that it would be easy to talk , but somehow , i feel that it is everytime more or less a one way exchange ,sigh , maybe i am just not that popular, and am meant to the quiet sort of person that i wanted to breakaway from , well its just that everyone is different and unique , no other much comments
anyways , german students came over to yjc for an immersion programme , i have several friends hosting them , haha , how i wished i signed up too , it seems fun , anyways joel's buddy johan and shu shan's buddy phyllis , haha nice knowing them a little ahaha , i can see that the girls in yjc are going gaga and high over some of the hotter german guys haha lols , shlda taken a picture with them and post them here , and see if the hits on my blog would rise for awhile =x
today i went to bukit merah library after my dental , found a book for my eom article , [ murphy 's law almost screwed me back there ] and i bumped into andrew , fellow BB boy i met from ndp07 told him bout my JC life , the stress and fun , ahaha and caught up a lil with him , also i felt a reenaction of the sense of motivation i got when i flew solo during o lvls when i stepped into the library , this goes to show that , though life might be fragile ,the power of the mind , is kinda amazing and strong at times .. haha
tmr is the deadline for my eom draft and my chem spa ...

55 ,

2009-08-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

55 days more to promos , yes 55 , its not kamen rider 555 [ thats totally random]

today stayed back till 8 10 in sch library to mug , i see ppl slowly involving into muggers too lol , tmr theres mini test on econs , oligopoly .... i studied , really hope that i can make it , then next week , econs case study ca , chinese test , then chem eqm on the next week so , yeap , nth much happened for me to blog about , so far so good , btw i set goals for my promos , i really hope that i can really utilise my fullest potential , and do what i had set out to do in the 1st place , when i decided to enter into a JC , if you do not even flap your wings , you won't know how high you will fly , Aim for the moon , even if you miss , you'll land among the stars , JC1 '10 or JC2 '10 , its in my hands , and i'll decide within these 55 days

Balance between good and evil ?

2009-08-12T08:45:00.001-07:00

A balance between good and evil , like how vegetable co existed with meat on ramly burgers ? (okay that was just random , too much College saga for me )

but woah , these 2 days ,alot of things happen that enlightens me to view things in a better light while things happen to give my morale a wrench in test

some remain ever so mystical and the way my subconcious mind reacted to it was . a new whole level of motivation and confidence that was certainly refreshing , one particular Example : instant incentives , u see the college library at 7.30pm , 2 hrs after official dismissal time , fully packed with majority of JC 2 s mugging , just in YJC alone , multiply it by 18 [ all JCs and MI] , and visualize the other JCs with the mugging culture and ethics like AJ , the so called 'elites' like RJ , JC and stuff , and include it with those mugging in other libraries and at home , a shocking number of people are competing with you for the A lvls , mainly plenty of them vying for the 3 Main Universities of Singapore , NUS , NTU and SMU , all trying to forge their own unique future , Be like one of them , at least the Short term its only until ur A lvls , and you wont live to regret , this chapter of life .

hmm anyway , there are other factors that would pose as obstacles and wrenches that would test ur confidence , for such xamples , like encounterances with scrawny looking and wimpy bootlickers who possesses the 'power' of a chameleon , instant change of attitude towards different people and look down on you and turn biased-ly judgemental even though they are not so well off themselves and are absolutely in no position to do so , they tend to strike when u are at the most vulnerable position like when u make blunders and at topics where they know they triumph over you , mainly trying to make u look like the fool and sound like they are professionals even though they aren't ,yes , the truth , they exist everywhere , and retaliating in the wrong way would make you look like you are stooping to a level as low as them and looking petty and childish , thus this makes it difficult to retaliate .Equipped with the power of 'change' they are hard to be exposed to their true colours by others with their prowess in changing attitutudes . these are annoying and major distractions that might hinder performances and goals in this materialistic society , woah , advice is to steer clear away from them =)

and another wrench .... it seems that i have to always lose something during the recent Archery Practice , i bent arrows , lost flecthes on previous runs , and today , i just found out that i lost my finger tab .... picture : some $$ flew away =.= ... okay, history shall not repeat itself again

thus life , sometimes is always a balance of good and evil , we must sometimes try to change the way we view things to a positive light and use them as incentives and motivations to work hard, goals are the fuel in the furnace of success , this is a meaningful quote my sec sch maths teacher told me =)
okay , i feel better after i blogged , sounds like i am writing some kind of essay hmm ..

Soon

2009-08-09T10:28:00.000-07:00

Soon , by Hillsong united [Brooke Fraser]

Soon and very soon
My King is coming
Robed in righteousness
and crowned with love
when i see him i
shall be made like him
soon and very soon

soon and very soon
i'll be going
to the place he has prepared for me
there my sin erased
my shame forgotten
soon and very soon

i will be with the one i love
with unveiled face i'll see him
there my soul will be satisfied
soon and very soon

soon and very soon
see the procession
the angels and the elders
round the throne
at his feet i lay
my cry's my worship
soon and very soon

i will be with the one i love
with unveiled face i'll see him
there my soul will be satisfied
soon and very soon

though i have not seen him
my heart knows him well
jesus christ the lamb
the lord of heaven

I will be with one i love
with unveiled face i'll see him
there my soul will be satisfied
soon and very soon
soon and very soon

I feel that this song is very special , almost legendary like and annointing,it appeals to both christians and non-christians alike , i just like this song, no other reasons why ...but it kept me going by , through the mugging and all , gave me the willpower to go on , to try to see the light that shines from the door that opens when one closes . with unveiled face i'll see

sudden incentive to post this while i am doing my EOM . i need to perservere on =) PW is draining and taxing omg

On the side note

2009-08-09T05:42:00.000-07:00

hadn't tried this for quite awhile, the colourgenics test , amazingly , it resonates through what i had been feeling of recently , cool thing , in a way , but gotta be strong here , keep fighting on , boy =)

Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.

You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

Btw , yesterday went to chinatown for lunch , then adjusted my specs , have a haircut its been quite some time since i had one ,then went to study at bukit merah library with weng leong lol . surprisingly quite productive haha , studied till 8+ then dinner at long john 's

Fireworks 's view from my house lol

2009-08-09T05:28:00.000-07:00

Happy 44th Birthday , Singapore !!!!!

2009-08-09T04:35:00.000-07:00

i am watching the national day parade now lol , was at the march past section , just now , when smth happened to my blogger ..the march past reminded me alot about NDP07,1st national day parade on the Marina floating platform , where i marched as part the BB contingent , the only white umbrella in the midst of reds in my role i still remember as the bridge of the letter 'A' in word SINGAPORE formed by all uniformed groups opened umbrella haha, i still remember the fun , and experience that i got first-hand , nice experiences .. i really miss my past alot .. when i experience lots of blasts from the past nowadays .., the contingents now all marched past le , and i notice that the uniformed groups did not carry any umbrellas with them , and the marched back past the front of the crowd , cool lol , we did not do that for NDP07 hahas
this years NDP is not bad , alot of showcase from the SAF . But on the contrary , i did not feel much hype from this year as compared to the previous , perhaps because of JC >< , ahaha , gonna wait for the fireworks later and post some pics [if i can take ] from the view from my hse aha .. ok . i Need to start on my EOM now, dang , so much for the national day package from JC

Yo i am blogging at school with my g705 now !

2009-08-06T22:38:00.000-07:00

national day package : JC style

2009-08-06T09:54:00.000-07:00

Home work!!! =D EOM , Chem , Econs Geog , and more to be disected out on the next free blogpost =.= omg , wahha , but we gotta be positive , 67 days left to promos ...

Hanging on there , we will reap what we sow

hmmm

2009-08-03T06:43:00.000-07:00

bloggers urgently needing to change font , size colour , upload pics/vid but cant seem to find them ? press Ctrl F5
i just found out lol , finally countering this glitch , had been wondering why the task bar had gone to haha

busy busy days ... ahh , maths Ca , EOM , WR , econs test , .. chem spa soon

No more nonsense now

gotta buck up 72 days more to promos

one thing i wanna share , having experiencing both sides , words from one , how ever casual it can be to himself , can actually be a source of motivation to others =) , or also can demoralise others ,

thus , we must all use and choose our words carefully , they could pierce like knives, or soothe and invigorate much more than a can of energy drink =)

2009-08-02T06:29:00.000-07:00

omg , theres still unfinished homework , undone , unfinished ... geo essays , gp essay preparing late night emergency kit

busy busy

2009-08-01T07:26:00.000-07:00

hmmm busy weekend , yesterday , friday , sch dismissed at 1.15 after our chem prac , went to eat lunch at canteen then went for pw , doing the last part of gpp and moving to wr , theres loads to be done ... then went to study at basement with branson, mahin , wei jie and edwin .. was kinda tired and done some work , but theresw still loads ... gpp , wr outline , chem spa 4 practice , 3 geog essay qns and gp essay ... now all still pending .. =.= gotta get my stuff done , by hook or by crook then went to eat at chomp pang nasi lemak , some really famous nasi lemak around that area that operates from 5 pm onwards , nice rice , fish and drumstick lols .. then went for some beancurd + tcsspm for awhile before heading home hahas

and btw , i just realised something of mine spelled S U C E S S , when arranged , kinda 'cool' yea ? , even if they are as dismally atrocious right now , but what i can say is that failure can be the mother of all sucess , as long as i can grasp that message and lessons learnt , and perservere ... 74 days to promos , still counting ... i am gonna make it , i am not gonna disappoint , i will go up with u all to JC2 ...and as they all say : action speaks louder than words , so i am gonna take action now and let the voice of the actions reverbrate across in a nice manner ...

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woah ... time to change , and outgrow of this alr , failure is the mother of all sucess , i shall pick myself up , change accordingly , outgrow, break away and walk out of it .. =)
Make a wish , Take a chance and Make a change
God , if i have the intention of doing something, please present me the chance and grant me the will power and strength

Breakaway ...

2009-07-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Woah .. i know that this song isn't that recent, and have heard it quite a number of times , but in the light of the recent events , this song came , struck my thoughts like a bolt of lightning , a really nice song by kelly clarkson , the american idol of 2002
this song seriously suits my preference , and i am like all over this song now o.O
sidenote : happy birthday , mahin and tereza ! =)

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BreakAway , from the 'U' of the pathetic SUSE and from my train of thoughts , its really time to come clean of it , and especially that , i know and i heard the voice of the actions so clear , struck my heart , yet i had still hanged on despite knowing that i shan't , and thought there is something i can do about it , but i can't,and i dunno how to , it just turns me away ,thus i realised , it cant go on
or history would still repeat itself, its been hard , its the first time i fall for one so deeply, it shatters my confidence time and time again , to see such a pathetic being that i have sometimes resembled during this phase, totally not the type of situation that i would want to be in . Its time .. to breakaway , this time for good , and to spread my wings and touch the skies , in this case the place of 'A's and 'B's , like what i would want to in the first place

2009-07-22T09:35:00.000-07:00

a quick overview , gpp due by end of week , just did finished my part and gonna off the comp now , tmr 's my chinese listening compre , hope i can get at least 9/10 , if not then 10/10 , i dun wan anymore negative history like the downfall during o lvls to happen again , btw last week had pw meeting and stayed overnight with pw membrs at quan yi's hse , branson ,claire and weizi , plus edwin and mahin who crashed haha , fun fun , ordered pizza and watched movie , but almost all fell sleep at arnd 4 plus lol , ... then next day , went to long john for brunch and left , i went to my cousin hse after that , for gym with him and my uncle at yishun stadium gym , nice gym , new facilities and machines , though yj has changed some of the machines too haha , today had archery , i realised that my aiming and groupings improved a lil , its kinda cool to be shooting again after quite sometimes lol , okay , sleeping in now , shall blog more next time , ...

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oh well , its time to break out of this ....

so now i cannot post other than writing the title ... o.O

2009-07-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

2009-07-08T03:52:00.001-07:00

sg outing cum edwin's birthday celebration on monday , to east coast park hehe , pictures from fb , fun outing and hanging around with them , could have done more if not for the rain , hehe , went to cycle, then lunch then a long walk in the rain and ake time , afte which some of them left and we played pool , lol , reached home at 9 + after an hour's journey

tues ,supposed to take class photos , but my ct wasnt present , so was postponed , and haha my ctg did mini celeration of me and madeline's birthday with a cake during pcct , thanks =) then nth much le , other than the sad fact tha i also found out that my chinese oral exams for A lvls is this friday !! . =.= thats fast and i am left with little time to revise ... i seriously pray and wish that it would be okay ... =)

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i dunno why i am feeling this way recently , i do not mean to and its wierd ... heh..oO

A small part of the world and of my story through the lens of my camera

2009-07-05T09:24:00.000-07:00

View of the small archery field from my 'study balcony'

nice view of the sky , aircrafts fly past here frequently , and ocassionally u might see ppl parachut-ing somewhere behind if u are lucky

one of the 2 tables of the 'study balcony' outside the 2nd floor gym
notice the can of coffee over there , essential if u wan hardcore mugging without the tendency of dozing off due to lethargy

Views of the seletar reservoir taken from the MRT ride from Kathib
u will notice a' levitating effect ' like an air craft taking off type of view if u sit at the seats facing the reservior , due to the MRT train taking a sharp bend and tilting the train a little , these views are the highlights of my whole MRT Journey home , and occassionally u can see people kayaking or fishing on the reservoir

Picture of a simple home-cooked meal that i helped my parents cooked today , cream of chicken soup , curry mutton and garlic flavoured sardines , matched with brown rice
rainy weather , so family decided to stay in for dinner , so decided to whip up a simple meal
it feels good to whip up ur own meal once in awhile as opposed to buying takeaways or eating outside haha

tomorrow , or i should say , later ,sg outing at eastcoast , =) looking forward to it
haha , managed to touch a little on econs and chem today lol but not much , but its still a progress hehe
=)

after block tests , another lap to go

2009-07-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

Phew , block tests and holidays have came and gone fast , faster than what i had anticipated , had quite a eventful past 2 weeks i guess , had pw meeting , bball outing with coe , then countless hours of slacking + a little bit of cabal [ gosh dun tell me i am getting the bug of addiction ,JC would not survive excessive gaming, ] and studying , in exact words ,partial last minute mugging in various places ranging from the regular Bukit merah central library to woodlands regional library to yishun libray , to YJ library to my home , and a latest new addition , a secluded 'private' balcony in college , offering an ambience of peace and quietness and coupled with view of the school 's field , large amount of sky and the small archery range , with occasional sightseeings of military air-crafts docking in to khatib camp next building
but then again , time isn't on my side , again , issues with my problems of effective time management that i gotta change . so did an around a week crash course preparation for block test ,this is not what i had in mind , definitely , but oh well , sch reopens again , and by right , today is supposed to be our school's annual jogathon , but it was cancelled in the light of the worsening H1N1 , was kinda looking forward to it actually , its been quite some time i took a taxing jog . Then monday is youth day , so there is no school , and during one of the days held a dicussion with sg members for an sg outing on monday cum celebrating edwin's birthday lols, fun , finally a chance to bond our sg hahas
anyways with regards to my block tests , i daresay that i did not put in my fullest potential , it didnt reach to half of my efforts during my o lvls preparation days , dunno what had gotten into me , maybe its because of the lack of call of urgency , feel so guilty to do a crash course in , but promos are gonna instill a sense of urgency into me and i had better not to do last minute stuff
As i have said , I had strayed far from the original path that i planned for myself , its time to come back there is still one last time , promos , do not let myself or any others down , do not harbour any more regrets , i shall evolve into a mugger and awaken the potential and latent prowess of mugging , in other words as coe ppl would say , BANKAI !, ASAP
lols , chemical equilibrium tutorials , gonna dive into them now .
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let go of those burdens that are not in within my control , those that i had held and those that tried to torment my self-esteem , however self-made as some of them might seem to be , i held them long enough , now its time to let go and let God
During this phase of life , where everything in the world starts to come at you in realistic , theoretical and materialistic ways , it is ideal that one perform the role and hold goals with guidelines of what a typical JC student would be like , plus my personal elements wanting to live life to the fullest , and the tendency to engage in a vibrant social life and try out new activites [though this kinda lead to the jack of all trades , master of none >< ] i read from somewhere that this is a trait in geminis , the desire to keep trying out a big variety new stuff and changing , wonders about other geminis out there haha , nothing is wrong with that , as long as we can live life to the max and get the fun and enjoy all of those activities , why not ?
Smile and embrace what we have now and what the future holds for each and everyone of us
ok , better get back to my chemistry =)

Interesting topic ?

2009-06-19T04:22:00.000-07:00

99 secrets about guys : . got this from a thread from SGClub , it is mostly true based on my past experiences and i thought i just wanna share , might be looking for the girls one soon hehe[if have] people , especially girls should find this topic useful ? hahas

1. Guys don't actually go after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys hate flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.

5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!

14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favour, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys' weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikeable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pu**ycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me"

59. Guys don't really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.

99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

tired and 1 more week to block test OMG , not much time to update , quick recap on week ,went to pw talk in woodlands library , i really liked the enviroment , conducive ~~~ , went to celebrate eddy's birthday with edwin on wed ,
then archery on thurs ... gosh i better buck up on my studies , not much time left ...
Stronger

(=Be it for Good or for bad
Well its time face the truth , that i will never be with you ~~~~ =)

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2009-06-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

moving forward , i am not going to let the June holidays take me back to the past , invoking past attitudes and all , its all river under the bridge , i dun wan to evoke it and let it flow up again , and nt let history repeat itself there are things that i have put in the past , due to reasons over past memories and experiences with some .... and i am hanging up my boots , for this 2 years and focus on my studies , i cant manage that type of stress that some have gave me , that type that causes me uncertainties and makes my blood boil internally , i cant explain how it feels , but thats just me , sensitive . the way i am and by being nice and nt act and recoil like a ruffian does not give incentives for me to receive that type of stress ,it would ultimately affect my studies and social life if i just go with the flow , and i need none of that stress ....... so .... keep moving forward.... need to focus on block tests

Sentosa trip and Vivo Skywalk cum me and jY 's birthday celebrations on 6/6

2009-06-08T08:16:00.000-07:00

Group picture at the skywalk at Vivo city

Our 'Maple' cake

kk loads of randoms =D

beware , i am watching u ppl

the unbeatable 4 ?

JY vs WL COE heavyweight title

Mw with his soccer frenzy

Xiao J =D

wat are they looking at ?

team of 3 ?

nice view , a symphony of the sky , the water , and land and greenery , infused moonlight and faint sunlight

NYJC peeps

sole YJ kia

TPJC peeps

TP Peeps `m/

Credits to various ppl's phone ,
Story mode: , in the morning went to Gess , BB meeting , wiith Mr Kho and the 2 csms , joined by marcus , jun wei and nicholas , they wanted to join the primers programme , kinda gave me the urge to do so , now i am still weighing the pros and cons , ... saw jY at sch , went to collect sch magazine , after that , went off to meet jason and train-ed to harbourfront , a fickle - of suayness experienced down there by some of them , was confronted by the SMRT personnel over what i think to be trivial matters , luckily nth much happened for them , went to vivo 's kopitiam to eat , then mw asked me to accompany him to buy some drinks , after that went to board the tram 'overseas ' , half way thru , a technical problem appeared , so we were kinda stranded in the middle of the IR in constructions in sentosa , with no air con , leading to stuffy air ... problem cleared after 10 mins or so , then were joined by chingli and li rong and shortly by ZH , we played around and talked for quite sometime , and went to the shallow waters , and an underground rock jutting our unbeknowest to all of us and oblivious to sight above the water , 'turned hostile' and jason's foot gt injured in the process .... well , then we just hanged arnd there till the sun has set and made our way back to vivo , then at vivo , , we followed jY 's suggested idea of ta-pao -ing food from the food stores and eating at the skywalk under the sky , , nice place to be with and to hang out with friends eh , then played truth or dare with some of them had a fun time trying to dig downsome historical secrets lols , and mw had to leave , and the rest of them came back with a birthday cake for me and jY , sang birthday songs and all , and kinda camwhored a little , and off we went back home shortly after that , btw , Thanks to each of everyone of u COE , CL and LR for making the day enjoyable and thanks for the present , =D i really appreciate the memories spent with u all =D
end of story of 6/6
wow i cant belienve that i actually took the effort to blog slowly uploaded some of these random pics =x , hahas ok , thats for now , today , stayed in sch after the chem test for geog , then after that studied with simin and melody , then played with the piano and melody's guitar , cool haha i wan try learn some guitar skills if i gt enough time , tmr archery , and wl's coming over for guitar 'lessons' lols
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Give the Providence of acceptance and trust and i will
give u the assurance that i will be more than willing to do my best
i am still debating over shld i commit myself and join the primer's programme ?

2009-06-05T08:04:00.000-07:00

Haizz , its been so long since i felt so dam demoralized and vexed ,
not by anything much , by the fact the way some ppl talk to me , in that unruly , rude interrogating ,authoratively and questioning tone , seriously , i kinda got the reason why i didnt considered the option of returning that time , haizz , seriousy , this type of ppl , they seriously frigging spoiled my mood, why cant they just talk nicely and include the element of basic respect , haizz , lucky i nvr encounter this type of ppl so much in college , i literally felt that feeling of uncertaintiness overwhelm me again when i encounter these type of ppl again , lucky that i wont be encountering them much at life , u can say that i am sensitive to words and tone ,words can empower and at the same time they can also crush , lucky that my SG and CTG friends are matured enough not to do this , phew,.... Cross over the line at doing this ,i v'e experienced this enough and i , and i wont hesitate
fish it , i gotta study for my chemistry , this type of ppl 'made' my day -.-
shall look forward to tmr , fun day , hopefully my 1st homecoming to 50th coy after so long , and meeting COE plus chingli , lirong and yong jia in the afternoon [postponed timing]
hoping nt to encounter anymore nasty trouble haizz

almost the end of the 1st week

2009-06-04T07:50:00.000-07:00

hmm , alot of things have went past during this 1st week , i like the flexibility of the lessons timing , where we can reach sch at anytime we want as long as we are not late for the lessosn , btw , monday and tuesday , had this relationship cum motivation talk by external vendor Adam khoo Technologies , on my honest opinion , it is really useful and it kinda serve as a booster package to the courses i had attended last time yeah ,... its useful , and i it kinda benefitted me in a way ... =) chem test , another disappointing result , damnit , need to come back to college for retest , sians .... i thought that i could have at least scrapped thru this one , haizz , btw i gt appointed as NE rep for my CTG , after Cai ning step down due to her commitments at her cca , just nice for me , at least a leadership position of some sort , then ytd , stayed back with Branson and Wei jie to work out at gym and run , then after that i left 1st to see the inter house basket ball competition , Jerome played with such seriousness and passion haha , Rodney was not bad =D , so was Admiralty and Seletar , well and after that , was quite late , jogged to yishun Mrt and jogged home from Tiong , and i unknowingly slept during my revisons for geog essay test today sians , then today , all as usual at sch , though 2 dissppointing blows from my geog assisgment and the test , but oh well , then went off after sch , went to jason hse with rest of COE except for Mw , watched them played cs , and fiddled around with fb , haha , then went back , tmr one short day at sch , planning to do some constructive chem studying , gotta prove myself to my Chem, teacher that i can do it , that i wont let her down
Sat going to Sentosa again to hang out with COE , fun fun ~~~
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then again , it doesnt seem so complicated at times eh ? ,is it the test of time and guts , and fate ..... giving it all i have got

Block Test for GP and MT , so yeah ,

2009-05-29T09:12:00.000-07:00

aha , block test , hope that i didnt screw up by writing out of points , i did my best in the time given , so i have no regrets , other than the gfact that i should uphold consistency and start earlier , supposed to mug for chem now , tmr goinjg archery and to tuition at my cousin hse after that , gotta get the chem stuff right , i am gonna make a uber come back from my last U in DW to an A in A lvls in the long run !! , , well thats my goal anyways , but i will improve and really practice consistency on chem
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saw alot of other people's blogs , indeed there are alot more to life , the times spent emo-ing and thinking about this stuff , could have been used for more other exciting stuff , we only get to live our teenage years once , so why get so moody , as one of my motto says , live life to the fullest , gotta keep trying , , thanks for those lively blogs that i have visited , ur recall on ur memories , whether happy or sad , had caused me to be motivated somehow , to chiong for my upcoming blog tests , to Forge my Destiny , and make my memories to be lively , ... and nt so emo-ish , i know there might be ups and downs again in the future , but speaking in this 3rd person kind of view , it makes me seem oblivious to my emotions ,and makes me see the matter of factly physics of life , .... as i have said in my previous post , i have already made up my mind, to stay determined in forging my future 's foundations with the best of my abilities , i am not gonna dwell much on 'this' issue , it ends here , no use getting worked up and thinking of the uncertainties over the same thing , being emo and sad over it once is more than enough , we ought to take away a learning experience once we step out of our emo zone , and not to step in once again , thinking all over about the same things , so , yeah gotta live life confidently , and smile , clear away all the uncertainties , face life bravely and think on my toes fast , , be more discipline and be constantly reminded about the matter of factly physics of life , right now , time passes , it is definitely doing something unseen but felt... as long as i live life confidently and be brave at the imminient circumstances ,i might fall , but i am not defeated yet , and i never will be , not by anyone , or anything , even in the next decade , i must learn to accept some circumstances that cant be changed , just like how that situation have went , that the odds of coming together is almost sealed by the word'impossible ' ? , is it even directed to me , am i thinking too much ? i hope not , but in anycase , i need to accept the fact that this is almost the case that would happen , to fully move on and let go , and seal this matter that ached me so deep for so long ... i need to be strong , strong both mentally and physically , to uphold what i said to reality ... continue giving me the motivation and the strength = )

GEOG H/W MOUNTAIN !!!

2009-05-26T08:08:00.000-07:00

.... 1 MOUNTAIN of Geog tutorials, essays etc waiting to be cleared by tmr .... lols shall blog after my block tests on this friday !!!!
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confused , lost , keep making wrong choices and decisions ? thats me for now
i didn't some things to happen this way , but things just arent in my control sometimes eh ? anyways , i made up my mind , and i am as determined to do it to my best limits like how i did it for the last half of last year , ... what has happened of up till now has been done , i did all i could , my best try , i didnt expect it to turn out like this , for me to feel emo all over and over again , such sucky feeling nthat i havent felt for long , uncertain of what i would do next and how things would turn out , nth say except for learning experiences .... , Forget it ... i have made up my mind ,i dun wanna affect other negatively , we can either continue this the way it is , or clear that last few blocks of tightly wedged uneasiness , its up to u , nothing within my control to be done
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Lord , Grant me strength and guidiance on the road to regain my composed nature and achieving determinations

Maths trail @ Sentosa on saturday and dinner at rajah inn on friday

2009-05-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

Maths trail today , was quite fun , though we spent 1 and half hours looking to our 1st station ...walked round and round , the island haha , then at the later part we sat the tram around the beaches and went back to the ending point in siloso beach , lots of hunks and babes out there lols ... the nice sun and the beach ... , initially me ande dwin wanted to hang arnd at the beach after the trail ended ,but could find anyone else , as the others were tired and nt prepared , this kinda gt me a lil disappointed i guess , as i was looking forward to it for like since the past week ,but oh well another day there then i suppose , , so we went to vivo for lunch at ljs in the end , walked arnd there and went home , which i slept for 2 hrs ahah , too bad we took very little photos today , and most of them only contain me Branson and Edwin , the three musketeers haha , photos in edwin's camera , shall get them from him soon haha

yesterday , went to library to do my part of the GPP with branson , while quan yi and edwin did their history work , lots of pl were like using fb and playing restaurant city lols >.> then went to gym with branson and edwin , worked out awhile , ate some left over buffet food from the student ldr investiture and went off , and i met Clique of Eight [COE] and york quan at tiong , saw quite a number of ex-gessians there too haha , anyways we ate at rajah inn , i ate the beef set of steamboat with chicken soup , plus rice and noodles , yummy yummy haha

tmr going quan yi's house to do out pw GPP again lols , wee ~~~ and i gotta do the mind map of our Gp debate and finish what i can with the chem pract ...
~~~until then and chinese oral on monday , hopefully i can be prepared , and gp and chinese block test on friday ,. i better buck up haha
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ups and downs , all over again , ... i feel so lost and i am confused ... what now ? what should i do ?

hmm... i know ... and i am going to do smth about it ...

2009-05-20T08:19:00.000-07:00

I said and reminded myself about it , and i am gonna do it again , ... i am nt gonna let myself , my teachers , my parents and all those who mean alot in my heart , including u reading this , if u have somewhat contributed positively and have given a slight glimspe or care in my life , i am gonna stay focused always , be it in tutorials , lectures or archery , i will be determined to do that , and pick up myself from where i have left , i am sorry that my results arent even close to meeting expectations , i will not let u all down , i WILL NOT let MYSELF down , i am going to give it my all and best , , like how i did last time , i am going to do it again .... just watch , i won't be that weak archer anymore , neither would i be that unfocused in classes anymore , working hard towards the block tests starts NOW , i am NOT gonna let myself retain because i never put in my best , it is then that i would find myself in the midst of regrets , ... i am going to start working so dam hard that i would hold no regrets even if i didn't make it , ....its going to be hard , but please Do NOT UNDERestimate me...... i know i have been held down by certain obstacles , things that i didnt want to happen happened , but its never too late to pick myself up , rather then doing it last minute , no point if it is just all words and no actions , my pride is sort of on the line and this post would act as a reminder to spur me on and keep me going , remember , kh , with desire and will , they will always be the fuel this race ....and ,... i am sorry to my teachers , my parents and also , friends if i had let u all down and disappointed u all by any chance

2009-05-18T07:47:00.000-07:00

studying for chem test tmr . , but why in the world am i blogging ? oh well , nvm ...
feeling wierd lately , a mixture of ups and downs where i dun really know how to distinguish ...sometimes i kind of feel like i am actually so lonely , and alienated , only me and my blog , with no one understanding the things that i am going thru....well other times i feel so motivated to live life to its fullest and find it all so meaningful but life still goes on ... so might as well make use of it rationally , like how i originally planned to do so , and nt stray so completely off it...
haha, if only i knew how to play with the piano , to generate that gentle atmosphere of peacefulness and calmness , to let my feelings flow so naturally like how the music comes out .....

overview of this week

2009-05-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

randomites :edwin , sam and me during sports day ! =D

just came back from quan 's hse for project work haha , a really nice and big hse, was pounced on by her dog lol! tried out their Osim uspace lols , dam shiok haha ...fun fun... now going to start on my geog h/w discovered only today .. 'grr...' lols anyways yesterday went for archery practise , and 1st time shot my own arrows ... my groupings improved , by a little , but still its good , but sadly as i grew tired on the rising afternoon sun and my arm got assulted repeatedly by the bowstring , i wasnt on form again and missed serveral arrows on the board , causing 2 fletches coming off >< .. but overall gt improvement yeahh =) then chit chatted with our seniors lol , before going to eat at mac with edmund , david and hao sheng , xian da went off 1st, trainned home and slept haha .. another highlight of the week was the sports day , haha , the cheerleading was super cool and nice , esp peirce and our own rodney !

also through the week , concluded that its good to be organised to maximise our time and make us feel less stressed haha

kk stopping here for now , gonna chiong finish my work and sleep early , and start the day fresh !

its all going slowly but fine i guess , and hopefully it'll continue this way , i am nt expecting much =)

outing /hiking with gess clique =D

2009-05-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

[JY's artistic values at work ]
Major photo update on our clique's overseas trip , in back wards chronological order

the peaceful setting of the sun marks our departure from the 'wonder-sand' beach

Grp photo on wondersand , cameraman trying to be funny

Jy

Mw , JY

Jason

WL , ZH

revival of the sandman 2 , it feels good to lie there

casualty alert !!

beautiful scenery

their best friend

hiking

:"yo, stay cool and green with the Merlion ! "quotes jason

henderson waves , Hello~~~~

yesterday went on an epic , 'overseas' outing with Jason JY ,WL ,ZH ,jY and MW , =D , met at harbourfront , hiked to Mt Faber, henderson waves , hort park , Science park I, Kent ridge , lunched at some shop at buona vista, and bus-ed way back to Harbourfront , trained "overseas" to sentosa from vivo "train station" , and went to the beach haha , we played various games with frisbee and volley ball there , till its dark , then went off to vivo for dinner and then back home , ... really enjoyed with them , its a fun , nostalgic experience and, at some point stress relieving too haha ..i feel that we have became so much more closer as we left Gess , now , all scattered at different schools with different goals and aims , but our bonds stays firm , remember , goals are the fuel in the furnace of success , and driven with desire and will , they will keep us going ! =D till then , Bros
5/5 =D

demanding week

2009-05-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

wow another demanding and exhaustive week , had our napfa 5 stations test on monday , and all was well except for my shuttle run which just passed and my standing board jump ... the thurs mass pe , did 2.4 , i was quite happy that i clocked around 10.50- 11.05 minutes , i am nt really sure of the timings but it is between there , at long lasy i improved from my 12.30 from last year hahas , then after sch , i dunno what came over me and i ran 1.5 km again , in preparation for my sports day 1.5 km event , lol then also , was pulled by priscilla to take part in the track and field day march past as part of our rodney house , lol , got to know quite a few other ppl , but wasn't really close with them as majority of them were from exco and were alr quite bonded b4 that ... well the simple drills , made me kinda miss BB , its been long since i felt this sense of discipline in me , it caused to to think clearly and be dam serious , but it also caused me to be a lil intorverted in a way too i guess so its kinda like a double edged sword ... but i really savoured that small feeling of discipline ... it made me think of the days of ndp07 etc .. , i suddenly gt the incentives to join the house exco lol , but oh well , the trainings were at wed and today , i didnt't manage to shoot any arrows today , though i brought my newly fletched arrows to sch though haha ... And GPP and Econs essay group work is dued next week , and its not touched yet ...
tmr's meeting sec sch friends again, ex gessians clique , for hiking , trekking and biking , fun fun =D
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if only i would be able to turn back time now
i would have joined odac or sailing and House Exco , with more variety of activities
but come to think of it , archery is cool too , espcially when i bought my own arrows
iv'e commited myself , things get serious and interesting here
i am gonna give it all my best in archery and never regret , but make the best out of it
If i would be able to turn back time now ,
i wouldn't have considered the idea of not being consistent in my works espcially chemistry and econs , and especially the way our chem tutor is underestimating our sg , i am sorry for not putting in consistency
but come to think of it , to start revising consistently and change and set goals now , it isn't really that too late
as i did not really heck care them then ,
it would just need constant polishing to catch up , and not moulding of the foundations
of perserverence and self discipline ,
52 more days to the start of block test , remember , if we fail to plan , we plan to fail
i know that we cannot turn back time , but we got to just make use of our learning experiences and resources to maximise what we can
when there is a will , there is a way , ....
i know that i cannot turn back time to leave a better impression , but why is it that i get treated like a nobody that u don't know outside lessons ... the feeling sux , but oh well , i am nt gonna whine ,overall its getting better in a way i suppose, and again , i am nt hoping for much now , just for the fact that i do not want to lose another friend because of some stupid step that i took , maybe u are uncertain , nt ready , or just plain uninterested or scared , i dunno , but what i can promise is that , i'll respect ur decision , and i'll never harbour any intentions to hurt you or make u feel intimidated by anysort and all the best for ur pw and sch work , till then, time flows while i wait , healing almost all unseen wounds on the way

strafing arrows and flowing currents

2009-05-02T09:49:00.000-07:00

went swimming on friday with zH and jason , ahahas , its been long , i felt the gessian nostalgia once again ... =D swimming is so fun , it relaxes ur mind and lets your spirit flow ... felt more destressed after the long chain of school activities and lack of sleep , and thoughts were more well organized ,
caught up a lil about our lives , and then went to eat , at bmc ,then i went to cut hair while zh went off, then wl joined us to study for a study session , where i cleared most of my econs yay =D then went to jason 'place for awhile before going back home ... haha , it was really fun hanging with these fellow '08 gessians again

then today , went to college for archery practice, i gt my arrows , the shafts only , coach forgot to bring my fletches but oh well , used to club arrows to join the rest for the 20 m shootout , was using a much stronger poundage bow than before , wasnt really used to it and my shots were inconsistent lol , .. but oh well practice makes perfect =) thats about for now .. and i made a decision , i am gonna commit myself into coming for saturday archery practice and my school work ... if we are going to do something , we are going to give it our best shot =D
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i 'll be strong and uphold my confidence , i'll not purposefully search for something that fate , destiny and time hasn't lined for me , but rather just wait naturally , for the time , where fate comes and the destiny in the forging of bonds

Exude...

2009-04-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

hmmm , today , at sch , did summary test , realised that i overshot the wordcount of 120 words , thinking that the limit is 150 ... GG , lucky only like 13 words , but still .... then maths test , i think i might not be able to make it this time round ... binomial ... grrr then chem , our sg only 3 ppl passed , ... grats ... and i failed once again ... damn .... i swear , this is the last time and i am gonna buck up !! no more excuses .... then went to play basket ball with jerome after eating , was later joined by marcus and his friend ... under the hot sun >.> , then pe again , under the hot sun ... haha, i felt an urgent urge to swim ... i really love water activities under the hot sun , but nt land activies , for too long , under the hot sun , ... lols ... today geog , teacher nvr come ... so free period , went to northpoint with wenjie and melody ... bought several sushi s and eaded back for gp / pw later .. and i was done with the whole row of sushi halfway thru , yummy ! =D ... then during gp/pw ... we were briefed bout gpp and finally the groups ... then stayed with a couple of sg mates for pi consultations ... then went to watch Jerome bball again before eating at the nearby shop and finnaly went back home , haha ... that's some quick regurgitations of my day today
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Is it Fate, or Coincidence , i don't know , but at the sight of that sorrow , it hurts and crushes me with guilt ... i might not be that perfect person but i guess i still care ...alot ... im trying my best , to keep with changes,to be strong ,to not make anything any difficult for you... i just hope that it'll not harbour any negative impacts affecting you .. and lastly , we shall , perservere and not let these rifts hinder our Goals

2 hours of sleep per day

2009-04-21T08:13:00.000-07:00

i suddenly gt the incentive to blog ... well as the title goes ... for the past 2 days , theres only 1-2 hrs of sleep per day for me ... why ? its basically due to the slacking mechanism of the weekends , and PI drafts ... and on monday , the touching up of my PI Draft ... backed with serveral unexplained technical difficulties ... oh well .. ironically , i didnt feel asleep at all in sch ... though i am mentally exhausted ... but it seems that caffeine from the coffee i drank took its toll =D ... i really gotta plan and rest well .... oh well i better get back to my geog soon

a meaningful quote from one of my friends msn pm :

Sometimes , when we give up on something , it doesn't
mean that we are weak , it only shows that we are strong enough to let go....

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we evolve in life to become better,stronger and wiser people , imbued with past experiences
to make wiser decisions and adapt to the current circumstances
it is wise to find strength and fully let go ?
Or is there any hope , Not false hope , to cling on to regarding this instance ?
no matter what , what is done to this point of time can't be undone , there is no room for regrets and its time for me to regain my utmost confidence anyways and stop brooding over this issue 24/7 , and i will do my best to hopefully untie this knot of awkwardness for now ....

physically exhausted

2009-04-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday , was actually officially dismissed at 2++ , then went to gym to work out after sch with edwin , mahin and quanyi , after which we went to makn and to the library to do some work .... wasn't really productive at the library though .. i just kept thinking and thinking about everything , the maths questions , the geo test and everything ... then went out for awhile with edwin and mahin , talked awhile and i went off to meet edwin from gess .. talk about hanging out with edwins haha lol ... cool its been a long time since we hanged out , haha went to long john 's at imm , then walked awhile and talked about out lives and stuff before heading back ... and trying my best to study for the geo test lol , ... but fell asleep while studying halfway >.> shouldnt do last minute work next time...
well then today , sch starts later .. at 830 .. awent to sch and to my horror geo tutorial 6 was to covered during tutorial , and i totally forgot about it ... so i just kinda try and chionged finish arnd half of it , while spending the rest to study for the geo test and doing the various subjects ... , then after school , stayed with branson , melody , mahin and axell to study at library again ,sorta completed my chem prac , and talked some more , then went to ate dinner at the coffee shop opposite YJ , then went home , hehe ... gonna sleep now , too tired .. tmr i'll start the day afresh , no more slacking for me , theres tons of work to be finished and my pi 2nd draft , kh , u know ur mistakes and weaknesses , please dun let history repeat itself again !!!
i might not be a perfect person , but i dun have any bad intentions and all , all i want now is just to remain as friends first thats all , will this awkward knot be loosened soon enough ? i am really doing my best , but it takes time i guess ,i dun blame u and its not ur fault i know , bout what u did not do , i know that this cant be one sided but have u thought of what i might be feeling ?i cant deny feeling crushed to keep thinking and pondering about why and how ....

thoughts while walking

2009-04-14T07:42:00.000-07:00

walking is sometimes good , especially when you are walking back home by yourself after 1 long day ... every step you take , you tend to recall and do self reflection of what has happened ... and why certain things are the way they are .. these are thoughts that aren't very much influenced by anyone else .. and one can tend to see things more clearly .. .. also, sleeping is another element that helps to reorganize your thoughts to make you think clearer and refine your confidence somehow ..

well ...as i walked home after school today .. i did a serious self reflection of what i have gone through from the start of JC until now .. all the ups and downs .. my current siuations , results and level of fatigue ... it sort of make me feel logical of the things that happened and why did i even let those factors that i know would probably produce negative outcomes happened ...
i guess i have in a sense kinda underestimated JC life .. but the key points to really succeed is really just within our grasp .. its just that if we would want to extend beyond our comfort zones and reach towards them ... self discipline,self control , perserverence , passion ...
i must really start mugging mode .. i know that thats the right thing to do .. i really wish that i can have the will-power and motivation to push me through
we should always know what we want in life and work towards it ..
well so much for that, gotta file some econs stuff . =X
i know , the way im acting ,it only seem to make things worse and tarnish ur impression of me more,i didnt mean for it to be that way , to falter everytime i try , it even demoralizes me ,maybe i still lack and need more confidence and courage in this situation... but i really care and i am trying my very best to just be myself and nth more .. really.. maybe it needs more time .. to untie that awkward knot that i foolishly tied ....

2009-04-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

i really like this song ... When the oceans rise and thunders roar , i will soar with you above the storm ....i love this song it help me up lift my inspiration and motivates me not to give up ...and keep running on this phase of life ...Father you are king over the floodI will be still and know you are God ... its a really nice song o.O .. k gotta do my h/w with full steam yeahhh

★ ∑‡Ω∞~~ Rhapsodies of a Hermesian Journey~~★